Mentally Unstable.
Mentally Unstable.
Junsu/Junho ft 2PM.
PG-13/R.
Romance, Angst.
Summary: Junsu has to deal with Junho's condition. Junho is Seung-ho, Seung-ho is Junho. 2PM is nothing without the Rain lookalike.
A/N: I felt like writing something different, it's a bit long. There is one more part to this.
PART ONE.
I'll be missing you
"We have to stay together hyung, we can't leave each other no matter what the circumstances are, okay?"
Junsu remembered the look on Junho's face so clearly, the way the Rain lookalike would glance and glare when he had something important to tell him, the way he would kiss Junsu randomly just to remind him that he loved him ever so dearly, and it almost drove Junsu up the wall a couple of times wondering why he did that, one time he even did it in public. That caused an uproar of fangirls to collide with the couple all the way to their van. Junsu could've sworn his blood was coming out of his ears or his brain was falling out of his nose in frustration.
All Junho did was laugh with those little eyes he had, and kissed the older male in an apology. But, how would Junsu know that all that time Junho was sick? That all that time the love was being shared between the two, Junho was suffering from a mental illness? That one day Junho would lose his memory and forget that it all happened? How the fuck was Junsu supposed to know that the love he had once shared with the younger male was to soon disappear in just a period of a short unfullfilled year?
Junsu cried and yelled many nights, threw love letters he kept hidden from his boyfriend all over the place, and even broke plates, cups, Taekyeon's toy figures, and not only that, he stomped on Jay's hat collection. He cried in Chansung's arms more than twice, and punched Nickhun in the face once before tearing down Wooyoung's posters, then throwing them outside the apartment door. The other members didn't, couldn't, and wouldn't know how to handle such a fucked up Junsu.
They tried all they could to calm down the member, but all they got were spits and kicks out of him. Jay got so furious at a certain point he threw a book at Junsu's face before telling the other members to "Leave him the fuck alone, he's obviously being a fucking pussy."
Wooyoung hugged Junsu goodnight, and left the lonely older male to himself in the living room floor sobbing painfully. He was certain that everyone was torn up because Junho couldn't remember anyone at all, and that he also had a split personality disorder. Junsu was the one who took it the hardest, obviously, but sometimes he thought it was a bit too much. Junsu was one of the strongest members, mentally, so knowing that he was like this, means that the older male really did love Junho so much.
Wooyoung closed the door and walked slowly to his bed, Nickhun had an icepack on his face and smiled faintly.
"He's so messed up, huh?" The Thai member said before sitting next to Wooyoung.
"Yeah...I don't know, Khun, it scares me a bit knowing that he's like this, I dont want him doing anything stupid." Nickhun wrapped his arms around Wooyoung neglecting his icepack, and kissed him on the forehead.
"I know, everyone is scared Woo, everyone."
Let it rain.
Junsu's eyes were bloodshot red. Junsu's lips were bruised and another bruise was starting to form on his left eye where he took a hit from Jay's book. Junsu's arm were weak. Junsu's legs were off the couch while his whole body was physically exhausted and Junsu's head was lying on a pillow that used to be Junhos'.
Everyone left the apartment to leave the singer alone. The fridge was open, the dishes in the sink were starting to pile up and the trash bins were starting to stink up the whole entire apartment. Junsu knew this, but he didn't have the energy to get up and clean even if it would probably make him feel better. He didn't have the energy to even take a shower in three days, and he most definately didn't have the energy to speak with the other members especially after the incident that happened last night. Junsu didn't have the energy even to sleep, all he thought about was Junho, all he thought about was how Junho looked like in the asylum.
The way Junho stared at him and the other members in shock and confusion.
flashback.
The doctor's said it was his other side, the side that he called "Seung-ho" and not "Junho." The side where Seung-ho was a soft, delicate little boy whose mindset was stuck on an 8 year olds and not someone who was almost 20. The side that confused reality with dreams and dreams with reality, the side that cried when Junsu came near him.
"You don't remember me? I'm Junsu, Kim Junsu." The other male just stared at him with tears falling down his cheeks before running towards the doctor that took care of him.
"He doesn't remember you, not this side, Junsu. He only remembers you when the other side of his decides to come out, but the side that you see now, Seung-ho, is dominant, we're not sure when the real Junho would appear, it's been weeks, and it could last for months, maybe years..."
That was when Junsu couldn't take it anymore. Junsu fell to his knees and sobbed violently. Wooyoung put a hand to his mouth and choked back a sob also, Nickhun held Wooyoung close to him, and Jay stared at the doctors in frustration. Everyone else was quiet and were shocked at how Junsu broke down. Junsu didn't show tears, not even at the least, he didn't express his emotions that well, and it shocked them to find that right now he was breaking down.
Junho, Seung-ho, stared at the older male quietly before making his way towards him.
"It's okay, don't cry." He said and Junsu stared at him. "It's okay Junsu, everything will be okay, Junsu. I'm sure you'll be fine, Junsu." Seung-ho's voice was soft and his eyes were so pure.
Junsu sniffed and hugged Seung-ho tightly.
"I love you so much, Junho." Seung-ho stared at him in confusion before pushing the older male off of him.
"I'm not Junho, I'm Seung-ho. I don't...why, why..." Seung-ho said before a spazz of twitches and flinches took over him.
Junsu's eyes widened in shock before he tried to help the former member. The doctors shoved him off and the security guards carried him into the waiting room. Everyone else soon followed behind and tried holding back the baffled member. Junsu yelled and kicked the door, everyone put as much pressure as they could to hold him back.
"Junsu! You can't be doing this man! At this rate he'll never fucking remember us, chill out dude. It's okay, you got us here, we'll help you get through this!" Jay yelled and pinned the younger male down, while Taekyeon held on to his legs. Chansung was sitting on top of him while the security guards were blocking the doors from letting Junsu get through.
"Calm the fuck down!" Jay yelled again. "If you're going to keep acting like this, we're never going to let you come back here again, do you want that to happen? DO YOU?!"
Junsu glared at Jay with disgust and crying eyes, then he slowly quit trying to fight back. Jay, Taekyeon, and Chansung's grip on Junsu was starting to wear off also. Junsu stopped fighting back completely and pushed himself up. He stared through the glass windows as the doctors rushed Junho into the door where he wasn't to be seen again.
"Where..where are you taking him? WHERE!?" Junsu yelled again before trying to run into the hospital's doors. The security guards tackled him down and looked at Jay.
"We can't have you guys here, leave, now."
flashback continued.
Junsu fell asleep on his bed after trying to fight back with the members. The other members were exhausted, mentally and physically, they all lounged around on the floor. Nickhun was on the phone with the doctor that was in charge with Junho, and after the call ended he stared at the members in disbelief.
"Junho's situation got worse."