I feel as though no matter how hard I try...I fail...It feels like every time I try to show someone I care...it gets thrown back in my face as something bad. I feel like there's this weight on my chest that's slowly crushing me. Like I'm breaking. It seems as though no one really cares. As though everyone sees how much I hurt...like everyone ( Read more... )

today has over all been bad...tonight has been the worst...something about a migrane...bad convo on the phone, and throwing up just tops off a terrible day. I dunno that I'll be at school tomorrow...I dunno that I'd want to be either. I'm screwing up so much...so terribly bad. Damn it I hate giving 2 shits. But yea so right now I feel like shit... ( Read more... )

Today was actually really good...

Lots of thinking...but good all the same

ok after Friday...things have gotten worse

After tonight...I want to fucking kick some ass

I'm so fucking tired of you talking shit...
Your lies are so easy to see through...
Your tries at revenge are just pissing everyone off...
Your feelings aren't being hidden well...
I'm tired of your fucking shit...

I thank u for your hugs
They helped me ( Read more... )

Ya know I've been through a lot in my life...more than most people think.

I've discovered through moves, and just being me that people either ( Read more... )

been having panic attacks all day

I'm not likin it so much

feels like my heart is about to explode it's beating so fast

my chest is tight making it hard as hell to breath

and i can't stop shaking

Been paranoid as hell too

Damn why is this shit comming back...after 2 years...y now

dude...who the fuck wants me to actually stay here

I seriously think that there's someone somewhere that actually wants me alive...I doubt it but there has to be seeing how I'm not dead yet...and I feel like I shoulda died tonight

FUCKIN SHIT

I wish I knew who actually wanted to keep me here

oh and yet agian...I'm fucking confused...

Hey guys..just got back from Casey's house...it was her pool party
thingy today so yea..that was pretty fun.

Yesterday was my birthday...it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. I actually had fun.

After school I came over to Pats (yea I"m at his house now lol he's not
here) and just a bunch of people were here...lets see if I can name
them: Pat ( Read more... )

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!

But yea...other than that...life is sucking balls...I dont even look forword to that

Ok so yeah I'm home...so I'm gunna update again ( Read more... )