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[plaidwildebeest]

...so this was to be expected...i've been happy for a while and i've been surprised but lately i'm just really upset and i'm just getting to my breaking point...i guess i wasn't ever really happy these past couple weeks...yeah i've been smiling but when i think about it i was having a good time but that doesn't mean that i'm happy...does this even

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[yellow_crayon17]

i have been like that too lately. but i think when im not pretending to be happy, which is usually when i am thinking, i am not being anything just staring off into space in my own head, i get really sad. and lately tons of people at school have been getting under my skin, so that makes it worse. and i am always afraid of making my friends angry, so i usually do what i feel they want, which screws me over all the time. and as sad as it is, usually i dont do little things that i think will annoy or anger people. thats why i usually never tend to IM people cause i feel that my annoy them. so many little things i worry about. really my whole life is like joke, i worry about the most ridiculous things. i am like afraid of life. i know i havent seen you in awhile but i am always here, you can always vent to me, cause usually i tend to carry things around until i feel i will burst, and if i eve do anything to annoy you tell me. cause i think i am the most annoying person in the world but if people dont tell me im just annoying them further

[plaidwildebeest]

ashley, you are the anything but annoying...i assure you of that!!! i love the randomness in our conversations...so don't ever think that you annoy me because you do not in the slightest way come off as annoying! and i hear you on the iming thing...sometimes i am afraid that i'll annoy people and that they don't want to talk to me and if they really did they would im me...
...i really appreciate this comment...and thank you for being there for me and know that i am here for you as well if you need! :O)

(and that spiders in the dark thing creeped me out...they are EVIL!)

[yellow_crayon17]

yes spiders ick.

but i discovered a reason why i am sad. spanish class. it is a life force sucking cespool. ok not really, but that class always makes me feel crappy.

oh and the randomness is one of my favorite things in the world. and i love that our coversations always contain random things.

p.s. ( this has been taken down already ) but dimmer had that transforming picture of the puritan on the board. and do you remember wehn we came into his room one day, and you said something about his "weird sandals" and we proceded to talk about his weird shoes and they were those shoe things you wear if you broke your foot or in his case had feet surgery. that made me giggle.

[plaidwildebeest]

aww the puritan...that was a funny picture...oh man i still have the picture i took of the puritan on my phone...ahh the memories!! and those things he was wearing on his feet were so flipping hillarious! dimmer was an odd ball...hahahaha...

*photo and drawing best classes everrrr!!!*

[icehckyrunner]

hey amber, i kinda get what u're saying, considering i've been home for a month now, and have hung out w/ korch..once.....and anyone else..i haven't seen...minus a few minutes here and there....but it seems as though, i dont have the time to do anything, even though i do, and im just too tired to do anything.....but yea, right now im going through stuff w/ friends, and it just hurts knowing that u're losing them....over stupid shit..that they can't come to realize....

we need to hang out sometime! and play some good ole hockey!

[plaidwildebeest]

yeah it does suck...i just don't get why people need to be so self involved when it comes to friendships...and it really does hurt to know you're going to lose them...it hurts a hell of a lot especially over stupid stuff that really doesn't even matter...

i am ALL FOR getting together to play some hockey...it'll be a good way to release some anger and have some fun! hahaha...but really we should it'll be a good time, like the old days! :O)

[icehckyrunner]

yea, i guess even if its some street hockey.....we can find somewhere to play.....or even some drop in

[_love_is_toxic_]

I love you big sister♥
I think today (as in Monday) we need to go for a long drive and listen to fabulous music=) and if you want, go to Chicago with mom and I Wednesday.

[plaidwildebeest]

i love you too and that was a fun drive we had even though you refused to drive on the way back...fool...