Amy

[plainoldjustin]

Amy,
I know at some point you will read this. I have to know a few things.

1. Did you tell your mother that you didn't care anything about me? If so, is that true? Did our friendship mean anything to you?

2. I have a feeling that you didn't write the no message/never message email, but I still have to ask. Did you send that email?

Comments

[angelkisses3693]

I wish you wouldnt do this to yourself... :o(

[plainoldjustin]

I admit that I can only hurt myself further by asking such questions, but it is the unknown that really tears at my heart. Not knowing...that is worse.

[lifedivine27]

I really wish you wouldn't do this to yourself. What does it matter what her answer is, the relationship is over. I am not trying to be mean, so please don't take this as such, but what if she did tell her mom those things, and what if she were to say the friendship meant nothing. You know those answers would break your heart if thats what she were to tell you, so why even make it a possibility? Justin you will never be able to move on if you don't take control of your life and stop putting the ball in her court. If you don't stop this now you might not be open to love when the right person comes along, and even when you are no woman is going to like being second to Amy's ghost. Let her go. Putting her first before everything and letting this control your life is not healthy. Let her go, let this relationship go, and get back to God. I am sorry if I seem harsh, that is not my intention, I am just sad to see you this way((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

[plainoldjustin]

It is true that so long as I leave my heart open to Amy, any woman will come second to a memory. Right now though, wounds are deep and life uncertain. When I've had time to cope...perhaps then I can leave behind memories of a love that could never be. Do not misunderstand me. I am so grateful for your presence in my life and I'm thankful that you care. I do not take your words lightly, and I know that you mean the best for me. *hugs*

[anonymous]

I simply told my mom that I was not in love with you. You have meant evrything to me. As for the email, I wasn't ready to talk to you yet. I am now though and would like to very much. Not to get back together but to explain everything to you. There has been so many things happen that were never explained and I need you to hear me out

[plainoldjustin]

There are two sides to everything in life. I represent my side fairly and accurately, I make no derogatory or inflammatory statements, and I do not lie. However, your not wrong in saying that the lj community doesn't get your side. Your posts are welcome here - but I do ask that you sign them. I also ask that you recognize this as my journal, not a debate forum. The same goes for anyone who wishes to post commentary. You are welcome, but please be respectful to myself and to one another.

[angelkisses3693]

Its not that I think your a bad person I just know that when you love someone, and it cant be, it hurts far more to be in contact with that person. I've learned by experience that the only way to heal a wound is to stop enflaming it... I dont doubt that your a decent person because Justin has never said anything but wonderful things about you. I just want him not to hurt himself by doing things that he can avoid... Its nothing bad towards you!