if youve never thought this dont comment and say uh never happened and make me feel like an idiot

[plainwhitewalls]

it sucks when you think of something really stupid you did, something that just made you look like an idiot. and then you remember someone whos opinion you care about that saw it, whether it be your workaholic mom that never spends time with you, or the kid you sat next to in class and liked all year and he never even knew. and youre like ugh! they

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[bran57]

what do you mean really?
i think i know what you mean tho, just wanna make sure.
like you did something to embarrass yourself?
cuz i remember embarrassing things i did and like even if it was a longgggg time ago i still turn red and like idk i hate remembering stuff like that lol.

[plainwhitewalls]

no not something like HORRIBLE just said something stupid, and now i dont even remember what i was thinking of. but i meant like when you wish the other person not to remember and then you think yeah they wouldnt remember because im not important enough to them for something i did to stand out in their mind, like they wouldnt remember because they dont care about me and itd be insignifigant i guess.

[bran57]

yeah, well what i was talkin about it wasnt like horrible just something i did or said that was stupid and i ended up embarrassing myself and im always thinkin omg i hope they dont remember that, but yeah like you said im like well i doubt it, it was just something small and stupid, like idk if were talking about the same thing but i think what you mean and what i mean are the same things. was that confusing lol, sorry.

[plainwhitewalls]

YES that was really confusing but its ok cuz i think i got it lol. i think we mean close to the same but not exactly but yeah, doing stupid things definitely suxxxx xx x x 8743587485 either way lol

[x0x0__broken]

that happens to me all the time, so your not the only one. I'm paranoid with stuff like that and think it all the time. It sucks but it gets better and eventually you forget about it too. Dont give a crap wat anyone says cuz I love you and thats all that matters lol. Whatever happened, I hope you feel better =]!

♥

[plainwhitewalls]

yeah it does suck, aww i love you too!!
bleh, and i feel better, i was just having a crappy night=/

[x0x0__broken]

yeah I had a bad night last night too, it happens sometimes. And I'm glad your feeling better =]!

♥

[plainwhitewalls]

what happened??, if it was on a post tell me ill jsut read that.
feel better too

[so_never_stop]

ha...that's like the story of my life. i don't really know what to say except that it only makes it worse to think about it and focus on the regret.

and i don't know how stupid it was, whatever it was that you did, but i've seen people do a lot of shitty things and i can only think of one case in which a single action changed my opinion of someone. maybe that's a little heartening?

[plainwhitewalls]

yeah stupid things ppl do like embarassing stupid not mean stupid hardly ever change what i think about someone, and youre right if i sit here and think of stupid things ive done and dwell on them its not gonna do me any good. i was mostly just upset tho because i was thinking yeah well the person wouldnt even remember the stupid thing i did anyways because they dont care about me enough for something i do to stick out in their mind, they would just forget because it would be insignificant to them. idk i hope that makes sense. i hate when im trying to explain something and its wont come out right

[onthedrivehome]

okay HOW many time have we talked about this? hahaha, oh man. I hate that. Like you feel so embarassed and crappy about doing something embarassing, and then you feel even worse when you reliaze that they probably didnt even notice.

but anyway, yea, I don't know what spawned this. it seems unrelated to the current events of our lives. and I say our because they're usually the same hahha ;p

<3

[plainwhitewalls]

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

no its not unrealtedsssssssssssssssssss unrelated. it doesnt matter tho. dont care no mo so yeah not worth explainginggg.

[onthedrivehome]

"no mo" hahah that is why you are my best friend ;p

that was so funny in the car when you said you were my therapist ;p

[plainwhitewalls]

and your clothing consultant and something else too that you are to me too

[veryshibbydude]

seriously nikki
you need to stop thinking
stop listening to bright eyes
and just rot your mind in front of the tv
and play video games
you will stop constantly thinking of these crazy things

or just like apply to be the dalai lama or something

[plainwhitewalls]

PlainWhiteWalls: ahahahahhhhahahaaaaarolfmao
A VeryShibbyDude: :-D
A VeryShibbyDude: i know
A VeryShibbyDude: im amazing
PlainWhiteWalls: yeah i laughed when i read that
A VeryShibbyDude: that was the point

[veryshibbydude]

i definetly had the best reply
i fucking rule

[plainwhitewalls]

yes and yes