Blackbird singing in the dead of night ( Read more... )

update:

i have been feeling really stressed out lately.

everyone is gone and at school; i feel as if i am by myself in this town.

i am having mixed feelings about going to boston. i want to leave, i dont want to leave.

i have so much to do, and only 5 more days to do it in.

we had to put my cat to sleep on sunday. ( WORST )

i hate the fact that i feel i am in a postion where the only solution to the problem is to avoid all contact.

it's not what i want. it's not who i usually am, but it's for the sake of my emotions.

i should have never let my feelings get caught up with my actions.

i guess i didnt want to acknowledge what was really happening. im always the one that ends up on getting hurt.

used
bruised
&abused

( for the most part, me and rod are in the same boat )

i FINALLY got a hold of my roommate!

dear kayte,
thank you for an awesome summer. i am so glad that we became friends. you are a wonderful person and i am going to miss you a lot. i love you! see you in december!!

your friend,
heather

ps i had a blast riding bikes with you this afternoon!

i hate goodbyes.
20 more days.

ughh...4th attempt on calling my room mate : FAILED!

I had such a blast last night!
great buddies, great times.
i love you guys!
<3

( sounds like, 'moooooo' )