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[plasticprophet]

I baked cookies last night. The night before that, I made quiche. This morning, I cooked eggs and toast. My new house is clean. I drink green tea. I drink water. I no longer drink soda. I go to the gym three times a week. I shower, wash my hair and brush my teeth. I am drinking and smoking half as much as I was at this time last month. I

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[outofservice]

I have the same question. I have a good job, great friends, am renting an awesome house. I have pets to love and care for, family that loves me and all my basic needs met. Yet I continue to be unshakably sad. It consumes my thoughts at every waking hour. I feel a lump in my throat and an emptiness in my heart all the time. I have learned to put it in the background, but why oh why is it there?

I think something is missing, something very important, but I can't for the life of me figure out what it is. I think its the same with you. Something you want or need eludes you, but you have either never had it or its been so long that you don't even know that its missing.

I wonder if anybody can point us in the right direction?

[outofservice]

in addition, bravo to you! It makes me happy to see you on the road to happiness. I will have to come and see your new place soon :)

[paradox0]

This is a fabulous turn of events. I'm very happy to hear about it. I'm still fairly sporadic on a number of those things, but they happen on a not too irregular basis. I'm still having trouble with the formation of deep and caring relationships though. I sometimes cite that as the cause of this perpetual discontent, but I know better. It's something fundamental. It's a hole that can be temporarily covered but never filled. It's the sense of deficiency that drives us to change ourselves and the world around us, provided we have the strength to endure the ultimate futility of the attempt. I rarely feel like such a person, yet somehow I'm still here, holding out for a better tomorrow.