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• What sort of profession in the wizarding world would you choose and why?
  
  At first, I was going to say an Unspeakable, because of the fact that I want to work for the FBI or CIA, so…secrecy and all that. However, I’m most interested in psychology of criminals, so I don’t know if I’d actually want to work as an Unspeakable, since they seem to do research with things like “love” and “time,” so they’re more research scientists.
  
  I mean, the wizarding world does have crime, so if they had things like forensic psychologists, I’d love to do that. That was never mentioned in HP, though. I’d also want to be a professor in real life. Unfortunately, I could not teach at Hogwarts because I can’t stand children/teenagers, so that job is out too.
  
  This question is clearly very difficult for me.
  
  Alright, well, I guess I’d want to be a healer, but for the mind, so something like a therapist. Especially if I could work with…I don’t know, former Death Eaters or criminals. I would hope the wizarding world had therapists. In reality, I’m not all that interested in becoming a therapist unless it’s working with people with serious mental issues.
  
  Yeah, so my final answer is forensic psychologist, and if that’s not an option, then mind healer/therapist at St. Mungos for the really crazy people.
  
  
• You have to venture deep into the Forbidden Forest one night. Pick one Harry Potter character other than Hagrid and one object (muggle or magical), besides your wand, that you'd want with you.
  
  Okay, to be honest, my first thought was Voldemort. He’s one of the strongest characters magically, and he clearly has a lot of power at his disposal. And if we’re in trouble, he could just summon his followers to help! Unfortunately, Voldemort probably isn’t so interested in helping me, and he’d probably find it funny if I got in trouble, so…he doesn’t count.
  
  I’d probably pick Mad-Eye Moody. He has the experience of being an Auror, so he knows a ton of defensive spells, and he’s able to apply them and fight back. He’s also pretty paranoid, so there’s no chance of something or someone getting the drop on us. Finally, he survived the first war against Voldemort, so he probably knows some tricks and tips to survive harrowing situations that he could pass on to me so that I actually make it out alive.
  
  As for an object, it depends why I’m in the Forbidden Forest, to be honest. If I can just leave whenever I wanted as long as I spent some time in there, I’d bring a Portkey that would activate upon a short code word so that if I encountered something I didn’t like, I could get the hell out of there! But if I had to stay there for a specified length of time, I’d bring the Invisibility Cloak so I could stay hidden. I thought about a gun with silver bullets, but I doubt I’d be a good shot under pressure, so while it might help people who could shoot with their chances of survival, it probably would just get me killed. At least with the Cloak, I could stay quiet and…well, invisible from everything in the Forest until I have the chance to escape/leave.
  
  
• If you had the opportunity to live forever, but your family and friends did not, what would you choose? And if you did choose to live forever, what would you do with eternity?
  
  I’m almost positive I’d choose not to live forever, because even now, I have this huge fear of people dying before me, even my parents, who naturally should die before me. Basically, I just want to avoid excess pain, and watching my friends and family die, knowing that I would never follow them, would definitely cause excess pain. I mean, sure, I could make new friends and new family, but they’d die off too and then I would have the same pain over and over again. I’m more scared than most people I know of being alone. Besides, I’m pretty sure the world is only going to get worse in the future. I do not want to be stuck in that future.
  
  If I did have to live forever, I’d probably keeping working with my field, trying to get better and better at it and amassing new knowledge and incorporating it in the work I’m doing so that I can become an expert in it. I’d like to be known for achievements in said field; when I was younger, I used to say that I wanted to be in a textbook someday. Also, I’ve always kind of wanted to write a textbook, so becoming an expert and having years of experience would definitely put me on the right track to doing that.
  
  
• If you could travel back in time to one point, when and where would you go? Why?
  
  I’d want to go back to Medieval Europe (specifically England) anywhere around the 1500s to 1600s. I’m really interested in the history of that time period, and I love the castles and knights and lore surrounding that bit of history too. I mean, I know that a lot of it is romanticized in TV and stuff, but…okay, basically, I just find castles really awesome and epic and I’ve always wanted to live in one and explore towers and go up the giant sweeping staircases. That’s…really the main reason I want to go back to Medieval Europe, to be honest.
  
  But only on the condition that I could come back to the present whenever I wanted, because I think I’m too used to modern comforts (like heating and modern bathrooms and technology) to give those things up forever, even to live in an awesome castle.
  
  
• What HP character do you identify with most and why?
  
  I think I mostly identify with Luna, but not completely. I have Asperger’s, so I’m always saying things that aren’t actually very appropriate or that make people give me funny looks, like how people look at Luna. I can’t interact in regular situations and only a small group of friends actually get me and how I talk. I’m the weird one in my group and I know people do talk about me behind my back.
  
  How I don’t identify with her is that she’s so sure and confident of herself and she doesn’t seem to care (much) what people think about her, and I have much lower self-esteem than she does, not to mention that I’m completely unable to empathize with anyone. I don’t really want to be weird, but I can’t really…help it. But overall, I think Luna is the closest character that I could identify with because of the weirdness and oddity and small group of friends.
  
  
• What would you see if you looked into the Mirror of Erised?
  
  I think I would see myself as a really successful forensic psychologist with the experience of having testified in several high profile cases under my belt. Fame would be nice, but I know that if I want go into this field, I’ll never be famous like…movie stars or whatever. But being asked to guest-lecture and being known in my field would make me feel like I accomplished something with my life, so I’d probably see some proof of that in the mirror (an invitation to lecture at some famous university, maybe?)
  
  Next to me would be a spouse and/or a small group of true who really supported what I did and understood my obsession with crimes and killers without thinking that I was a little bit crazy. That would fulfill my need to have someone to flail about crimes and really interesting cases with as well as take care of my fear that I will be completely alone in the future.
  
  
• Do you believe that moral actions should be judged by the intentions behind them, or by the consequences they create?
  
  Of course, I immediately started thinking about this from a criminal law point of view, where obviously, actions would be judged by the intentions. Yes, I’m obsessed with crime.
  
  But crime aside, I do believe that moral actions should be judged by intentions. If I wanted to cause someone harm, even if it didn’t work out, the fact still remains that I wanted to do something bad, so I’m still morally wrong. In the same way, if I tried to help someone, but I messed up and hurt them instead, I should be able to explain why I hurt them and have them understand that I wanted to help them and that I wasn’t trying to be malicious.
  
  Basically, for me, it comes down to this question: “Am I trying to do good or do bad with so-and-so action? And if I think I’m trying to do good, is it really good for the society/people in general or just good for me?” Since I may think something is good for me, but have it actually be selfish, which would make those actions morally wrong as well, should it hurt others in any way.
  
  
• What was your ideal job as a kid? Has that changed? What is your ideal job now?
  
  When I was younger, I really, really wanted to be a teacher. My mom pointed out that it was probably because all I knew was going to school, so I naturally looked up to teachers. And while that might be true, my ideal job still has to do with teaching, with an added bit.
  
  Currently, my ideal job has two parts. I’m currently a psych major and loving it, and someday, I want to be a forensic psychologist, preferably working for the FBI or CIA, but I’d be fine having my own practice or just working for the local police. There are several reasons I’d want to go into forensic psych. Unfortunately, none of them actually have to do with having a sense of justice.
  
  First, I’m really interested in crime and killers. I want to know what makes criminals tick. Why do they do what they do? How do people become criminals? I spent hours and hours last semester reading tiny details about old crimes, school shootings, serial killers, and anything having to do with such things. I love the dark side of human nature. Second, the way my personality works makes me really suited for a job with crime. I’m entirely dispassionate about people. My professor last semester actually said, “You’d be good at forensic psychology. You don’t care about the victims, just the facts.” And it’s really true. I can interview criminals and put aside my feelings about what they did and look at things objectively, whether they killed one person or went on a rampage. Forensic psychology is a job where you really can’t put your feelings first, but seeing that I don’t actually have many, it would be good for me.
  
  In addition, I’d want to teach at a college level on the side. I’ve come to find that I can’t stand children. Anything under 18 would make me want to shoot myself on a daily basis, so college level is the lowest I’d be willing to go. The professor I had last semester, who was a practicing forensic psychologist, taught once a week at my university, and I’d love to be able to do the same and share my love of forensic psychology with students. (Also, if I taught forensic psych, I could go on and on and gush about crime and killers and dead people and I wouldn’t have people think I needed to be in a mental hospital…) I want someone to find a role model in me, as I did last semester when I took Law Psych with that professor I mentioned earlier in this paragraph, and hopefully, I could help someone decide they wanted to go into forensic psychology as well.
  
  Wow, that was a really, really long answer for a simple question.
  
  
• If you were able to invent one spell, potion, or charm, what would it do, what would you use it for or how would you use it, and what would you call it?
  
  I’d probably invent a potion called the “animalia venenum” that would give me the ability to turn into any animal I wanted for a specific amount of time (maybe like a day or something). This would probably be really difficult, expensive, and time consuming to make, since it’s such a powerful potion, so that we don’t have random people changing into different animals all the time. I mean, I know I could just master the Animagus transformation, but that animal is picked for you depending on your personality, and you can only have one animal, as far as I know.
  
  With this potion, I could turn into anything from a fly (invisibility) to a cheetah (speed). So not only would this potion give me the ability to transform into various animals, but as a side effect, it would also give me all the extra abilities that come with various animals. In addition, I might then be able to converse with various animals just by transforming into that animal species.
  
  I’d probably use it if I ever found myself in a situation where I needed to have certain abilities (for example, if I was spying on someone, I could turn into a fly, whereas if I needed to hide underwater for a long period of time, I could turn into a fish).
  
  
• If you were to face a boggart, what would it turn into? And what does it turn into when you throw the counter-spell, Riddikulus?
  
  Well, most of my fears are not tangible, like fear of being alone or fear of not being in complete control, but my greatest tangible fear would probably be bees. I’m allergic to so many things that I assume that I would be allergic to bees should I ever be stung, but I’ve never actually been stung, so I have no idea if I really am. Therefore, I’m really paranoid around buzzing insects, and every time a bee/wasp is nearby, I shriek and run away.
  
  If I actually managed to throw Riddikulus at them after running away, they’d probably all lose their wings and fall to the ground suddenly in mid-flight.
  
  
• What do you look for in a friend?
  
  I look for someone who I know will have my back and support me and listen to me. I want to know that person will be there no matter how bad things get and no matter how down on myself I get, since I do tend to do that a lot. They should be pretty chill and laid back. I also want to look for a friend who has around the same intelligence that I do, or at least have the same drive to want to study hard. Talking to people who clearly don’t care about bettering their mind and only want to have fun makes me want to end the conversation and leave immediately. Finally, having at least a couple of interests in common means that it’ll be easier to have conversations, at least when we’re first getting to know each other, since I have so much trouble holding regular conversations with people.
  
  
• What trait most annoys you about other people?
  
  Immaturity and disrespect! This is the main reason I don’t want to teach anyone under the age of 18, because I had a really bad experience with my class in high school regarding immaturity and respect. I was a class officer, and let me tell you, getting 40 girls to actually sit and listen to you is a daily battle, because most of them had no concept of shutting up and listening to important announcements. It was like they physically couldn’t keep their mouth closed.
  
  …yes, I hold a lot of bitter resentment about this. You may have noticed.
  
  
• What do you think are your top five abilities or qualities?
  
  Drive: As you can probably tell from my app, I have a strong, strong desire and drive to get into grad school and get my PhD in psych and become a forensic psychologist. My drive actually only really extends to the topics I’m really interested in, though I guess that’s okay because it means that I’ll be able to focus on the things that matter to me and achieve highly in them. I already have plans to TA for my Law Psych class and hopefully intern with the professor of that class once I turn 21, and although I was really nervous about asking him, I did because I wanted to do everything I could so I could be successful in the future.
  
  Ability to analyze self: I don’t know if it’s because of my psych major, but I’m able to look at myself very objectively and figure out what is wrong with me. For example, my Asperger’s is mostly self-diagnosed. I was like, “Hmm…I fit all these symptoms except for one or two…Asperger’s is a pretty likely fit for my issues.” I’m also able to look at my shortcomings and figure out what I need to fix in my life to make myself a better person. Whether I actually fix them is a completely different issue, but I’m at least able to recognize that I’m not perfect and pinpoint the things that could use some work. Basically, I can be objective about myself.
  
  Inability to empathize: This may sound like a bad thing, and to most people, it probably is a bad thing. However, when my professor said that I couldn’t empathize, I was really proud of it, because it meant that I’m in the right mindset for the field I want to get into. And when I saw I can’t empathize, I don’t mean with anyone. I do care a lot for my family and friends, maybe too much, even. But the rest of the world? If they’re far away from me, I’m detached from them. I’m really awkward and it takes me years to get a really good rapport with people. This inability to empathize does mean that I don’t get too emotional about sad worldly issues. I can look at this calmly with my mind instead of my heart, and I won’t jump the gun to some inaccurate conclusion too soon.
  
  Organization: I need to have everything labeled and in the right place at the right time. Being late to something makes me really uncomfortable to the point where I’m always 10-15 minutes early for every class if I can help it. My music folder is organized by “Single Albums,” “Artists,” “Single Songs,” “Broadway,” etc…Really, my need for organization goes to the point of being anal. The other day, when I was checking data in my lab, I saw that most of the entries in a column weren’t capitalized except for one or two. I had to go through and take out the capitalization in those couple of entries, or it would just bother me the rest of the day. Everything has to match up for me, so things are generally really easy to find if I’m in charge of organizing them.
  
  Aloof: Another normally bad trait that I actually like in myself. I can spend large qualities of time by myself, and I don’t have to depend on other people. A big thing for me is my need for control all the time, so just depending on myself means that I’ll never be left hanging by other people who may not have my best interests in mind. I can hole myself up in my room for hours at a time and just read or watch TV or something that doesn’t involve conversation, so I don’t get lonely very often. Also, being aloof means that I have less chances of being hurt by others. I do have a couple of close friends, and I wouldn’t want to lose them ever, but overall, especially in big groups that I don’t know too well, I’m extremely aloof.
  
  
• What do you think are your top five weaknesses or worst qualities?
  
  Doormat: When it comes to things that don’t have to do with my future career directly, I’m a pretty big doormat. I let my friends step all over me because I really hate conflict. If I’m irritated, I keep it to myself because I don’t want to make a mess and then have to deal with it later. I’d rather keep people close as a friend than have them as an enemy/dislike me, so I just go with the flow for the most part. Also, for the few close friends I do care about, I don’t want to upset them, so I just let them make the decisions and I go along with them so they’ll be happy.
  
  Need for approval/affection: I crave the approval of the people around me. I want to be the one people look up to, the one people say, “Good job,” to, and the one people ask questions. Even a <3 or a casual “Love you,” from someone makes my day because I’m so starved for affection. I think part of it is that my parents don’t approve of my major or my love of crime or my hobbies, so I look for approval somewhere else. Also, I have really low self-esteem, so getting affirmation from people, even if it’s just people online, makes me feel better about myself and makes me feel loved.
  
  Lying: This kind of goes with my reasoning of why I’m a doormat. I don’t want to create conflicts, so I tell people what I think they want to hear. I assume it’ll make everyone happier and that it won’t hurt anyone because then they won’t hear something they don’t like and I won’t have to be the person who told them something they didn’t want to hear.
  
  Irritated easily: I swear, all of my top five worst qualities are all related. Just because I’m a doormat doesn’t mean I’m super chill. In fact, I get irritated very easily. Little things people do tick me off, even if they’re not trying to irritate me on purpose. I have a very high standard for how people should act around me, and if they don’t match that, then I get bugged. I just don’t let them know about it, and then it builds up inside me slowly until…
  
  Talking about people: Since I won’t tell people that they’re irritating me, I usually end up telling someone else about it. When I talk about other people, there’s usually a lot of, “Oh, but maybe so-and-so is right about this and I’m wrong…” but the fact remains that I can’t just confront the person who is irritating me in the first place and must instead take my frustrations elsewhere. Partly, it’s because I’m a coward who is too scared to confront people, especially the ones I really care about and want to like me, and partly, I just want to keep the peace between me and this other person so that no messes are created.
  
  
• Define in your own words the following key traits:
  
  • Courage: The ability to stand up for the people and/or the ideas you believe in even if you’re the only one to do so, or even if it might make you a few enemies or even get you killed.
    
  • Loyalty: Always being there for someone, being supportive through everything, and letting the other person know that you’ll have their back.
    
  • Intelligence: Not only being good at school, but knowing how to apply what you learned in real life situations, being practical.
    
  • Ambition: Knowing what you want and being willing to work hard and do whatever it takes to get to that goal, no matter what people say or what obstacles come in your way.
    
  
  
  
• Name: Flo
  
• Age: 19
  
• Where did you find out about us? It’s been years since I first found this comm, though recently, malicat and thegrlwhowaited got me back into it/actually doing this app. Especially malicat.
  
• Do you plan on being active in the communities once you are sorted? Yup!