Trying this once more! (Revised)

[awwsugah]

Oh, my. It seems due to my word choice and repetitious use of those words that this application seems to most like it is begging for a certain house. I truly wasn't, for what it is worth. I am redoing the application now and will be posting it within the hour. I do apologize for wasting anyone's time and thank those who did read it and put thought into it. Please refrain from voting until the edited version is posted. Thank you again!

*REVISED*: Okay everyone! I tried to redo those sections that seemed pushy. Again, I offer you my apologies. After re-reading I can definitely see how you would perceive this application as 'shoving you towards one direction'. I really didn't mean to, but you're right. If I've already made up my mind then there's no need for me to ask you to sort me, is there? Okay. Trying this again!

• What sort of profession in the wizarding world would you choose and why?
  I would work in the Ministry. Thing is, I'd probably end up behind a desk in some little office (like Arthur). I'd want very much to be the head of some department, make decisions and carry some weight. Problem is, despite wanting to eventually have a job that gets me acknowledgement and turns heads, I don't think I've got the drive. I'd still work hard enough to get myself inside the ministry, though...beyond that I'm the type of person that takes the easy option if it's there. Plus, working in the ministry at all is still reputable. I'd try and aim for one of the more significant departments, since the pay is probably better there. Working for the government requires a certain amount of contact with people, and I can handle that. I don't care to be forced into a team situation at all times, though. Therefore, yes, the ministry would be best.
  
  
• If you could teach one class at Hogwarts, what would it be and why?
  Transfiguration interests me alot. The idea of being able to change the form of something is incredible, especially if it's yourself. Plus, it seems difficult. In the books they always go on and on about how tricky it is, and almost every time something small goes wrong. I'd want to be an animagus, too, and that would require a very intimate knowledge on transfiguration. Potions is too boring, DADA is too gung-ho. I mean, DADA would be loads of fun, but it doesn't require alot of thinking. Well, I'm sure it does...I just like transfiguration more. I think, since I have alot of respect for the subject, I'd aim for teaching it.
  
  
• This year, The TriWizard Tournament is being held once again and you're of age. Do you put your name in the Goblet? Why or why not?
  Sure. I'd put my name in the goblet. The Triwizard Tournament only comes around once in a rare, rare while and I wouldn't forgive myself if I didn't. And even if I didn't get chosen, at least I would be able to watch knowing it wasn't because I didn't put my name in. Just the thought of...doing something big like that? That would be insanely thrilling. I want to be acknowledged. I've got the skills, I know I do. I've always been very self-aware of my own talents and knowledge and abilities. It's time the world knew too, damnit.
  
  
• If you could choose your animagus form, what would it be and why?
  A black wolf. I'm sure there's some deeper symbolism to the fact that I feel the wolf would have a black coat, but the wolf part is really more significant. It's not just a matter of, oh, favorite animal! Or pretty doggie. It's...that feeling of seclusion from the rest of the world. Not necessarily self-important or egotistical. It's not that I feel I'm better than the rest of the population - it's just that I'm different. I was set apart, and I'll always be alone for that reason. I doubt I'll get married or have children. Yet, by the same token, there's a level of loyalty in wolves. Their pack, the way they go about surviving. They need each other and everyone does their job. You do what you have to do to get by, you protect what you have to protect, and the rest is a matter of hunting. And in the end, all you've got is you. There's a level of dignity to that.
  
  
• What HP character do you identify with most and why?
  Oh, god that's difficult. It's a toss-up. I'm sure that's not what you people like to hear, but there you are. Between Remus Lupin and Severus Snape. Again, that level of seclusion. Both of them, from the very beginning, were set apart. Not of their own free will, either. Both men struggled with lacking comforts and had to learn how to be without. Because of this, their worth is to be found inside them. In their minds, in their skills. And they've made sure that, despite the things that make people frown down at them, they've made sure that they're worth something. Remus Lupin, much like myself, went through experiences and tragedies that he didn't ask for. Severus Snape I believe did as well, but his decisions because of them were his own to make and his execution in life went astray. Still, no one is perfect. We aren't all heroes. Remus and Severus, because of their "flaws", possess a deeper dignity. They both seem sacred in a way, in spite of themselves. A large majority of the horrible burden I carry in life, I didn't ask for. I've never known anything but financial difficulty, and I probably never will - even though I am intelligent and have alot to offer. A few years ago I was in an accident that resulted in a permanent disability and chronic pain. I didn't ask for that either. The world has set me apart. It's not fair or right, but it's made me who I am, and I define myself differently because of it. I have ambition because of it. I work harder because of it. I'm significant because of it.
  
  
• What would you see if you looked into the Mirror of Erised?
  I would see a face that wasn't constantly pained. I would see someone over my shoulder, reading my published novel, and smiling. I would see myself sitting comfortably - legs crossed - in an oversized and comfortable home with nice furniture and a fire burning, depending on no one and having earned everything in my possession, and being respected for it. Being something for it.
  
  
• If you won a million dollars, how would you spend it?
  After all the necessities, buying my own home and furnishing it, and purchasing the newest forms of everything to fill it with, indulging accordingly until I felt comfortable, I would probably finance my own publishing company or book store. The latter sounds meager, but I'm actually very ambitious. I would run the best 'wizarding text and literary services' shop in all of Europe. But other than securing myself and fueling my own success through business and such, I'd definitely spend the money selfishly. I deserve it after all this time. Amazing robes, best broom there is to buy, and all of the rare and precious knick knacks and magical objects I could get my hands on. Indulge! It's fun!
  
  
• What was your ideal job as a kid? Has that changed? What is your ideal job now?
  When I was a kid all I wanted to do was find work that paid suitably enough and didn't require effort. I, of course, ended up excelling in whatever I did anyway. Retail was what I focused on as a teenager, obviously. Not like there's much choice. I was a Sales Associate at Hot Topic from age 16 to 18. My dream is of course to work in a writing field, being an editor or an intern at some respectable newspaper or have my own column and eventually work my way into novels, become known. Actually when I was really young I wanted to be a Paleontologist. It was a Jurassic Park thing.
  
  
• If you were able to invent one spell, potion, or charm, what would it do, what would you use it for or how would you use it, and what would you call it?
  I would invent a potion that, once ingested, would enable the drinker to hear what people were thinking. Obviously this would eventually drive one mad, so it should only be taken in small increments and it's potency should begin to wear off after one hour. But imagine being capable to manipulate anyone and everyone, use them for exactly what you wanted and get exactly what you need from them. From anyone. The possibilities are endless.
  
  
• If you were to face a boggart, what would it turn into? And what does it turn into when you throw the counter-spell, Riddikulus?
  A car, probably. The accident that crippled me involved being run over by a car. Perhaps a car or, a hill. Because I wouldn't be able to walk up it. Or myself. Seeing myself would be frightening. Especially the way the world sees me. Probably a car though. Rushing foward, I'd imagine. Isn't that a lovely metaphor, too? The car could symbolize so many things, or be taken in the literal sense. As for what it would turn into...maybe it'd just turn into a puff of air. Just a cloud, something completely intangible, fog or dust or something. That way it retains no power and I never really get hurt. That's not very funny, though, is it? Maybe its wheels would fall off.
  
  
• What do you look for in a friend?
  Someone I can actually appreciate. I have to be able to get something out of their company. They have to not only earn my respect, but put that into action. They have to be a writer, or an artist, or something. And they need to be good too. Going somewhere. Worth something. Have huge ambition and be capable of getting there. Otherwise I get bored and agitated, because people really aren't worth that much to me. They've got to be intelligent, or have something I want. Intelligence is preferable. Something significant, something that makes them someone I actually want to be friends with. Someone I'm constantly excited or amused to be around.
  
  
• What trait most annoys you about other people?
  The lack of identity most people my age have. They don't have opinions, they're easily persuaded. They don't actually know what they like, what they want, who they are. I don't know, I guess because I feel like I do know those things, it really bothers me that hardly anyone else does. Maybe just...being young? Being young isn't a trait. Stupidity bothers me, but everyone says that. Of course there's alot of different ways to define stupidity.
  
  
• What do you think are your top five abilities or qualities?
  Writing, eloquence, knowledgability, maturity, applying the experiences I've been through to everyday life.
  
  
• What do you think are your top five weaknesses or worst qualities?
  My lack of social graces, my compulsion to be abrasive, having a limp, constantly being in pain, agreeable emotions in general.
  
  
• Define in your own words the following key traits:
  
  • Courage: Picking and choosing your battles. Courage is, more often than not, stupidity being exercised. Being rash, thinking more of yourself than you really are, or not thinking at all. "Psych yourself up and jump." What's so smart about that? The only other way to define courage is Jack Daniels.
    
  • Loyalty: This is important. Loyalty makes or breaks a man. Trust is a one-time deal, and you can't glue it back together. You're either worth something to a person or you aren't. No matter what, one has to have certain people who don't fit the profile or exception list. People who you're willing to do anything for- for whatever reason. Whether it's the fact that they're your family, or your friends, or your fellows, or just someone you need...certain people have no exceptions. You do anything for them. It's something no human is immune to.
    
  • Intelligence: Not necessarily knowing everything, but knowing everything about the things you do know about and beyond that...knowing enough to make it sound like you know everything.
    
  • Ambition: Ah, yes. The absolute unbeatable of the four. Ambition drives you, and it makes who you are or your past irrelevant. If you want it bad enough? You'll find the means. Doesn't matter where you come from. All that matters is...you damn sure know where you're going.
    
  
  
• Name: Meg
  
• Age: 19
  
• Where did you find out about us? My friend sugarkissx pointed me in your direction.