y'know how when life is pretty much perfect you just know something's gotta give?

yeah. me too.

This month has been crazy. Things are happening to me that just don't happen to me. I swear, hell froze over ( Read more... )

i've never given a definite yes.
always maybe or next time.
i guess that didn't sit well.
"we're never gonna do this,
let's just forget it."
that's okay. i never wanted
to fuck you mr. i have
three different kinds of
condoms, wanna help
me try them out?
and oh, these precious things
but what if they were
never precious to begin with?
when did i become your
good ( Read more... )

i went out with Casey and Danielle tonight. we went up to Calico Jacks first because a friend of Danielle's was playing in a band there. She got bored with that kinda quick though. she wanted to go to Pretzels. the band was actually good. i didn't want to leave, but eh. Casey was all "i don't care"ish, so she didn't help. so we left and went up to ( Read more... )

i hate this. i feel like the words just won't come out. they're there. i can feel them. i just can't express them. it's so fucked up but i almost wish that i felt nothing but pain again. at least that was easy to put down on paper. this shit isn't. i'm confused and hurt and i hate myself and i feel complicated and lost. and i can't even say why ( Read more... )

i dream of tragedy.

i wish things were okay, but they aren't.

so it's almost 3AM and i don't want to go to bed. the music video countdown ends at 3, so i guess i'll go after that. plus, i have to work at 2 tomorrow. so it's probably smart ( Read more... )

this won't be long. just simple and to the point.

i woke up tired so that's all i've been today. i almost got into an accident on the way out of school. fucking wet roads. i hate florida. oh, and Chris broke up with me.

free at last. today was my last day at AMF. w00t. no more bowling center bullshit. i am so happy that i'm finally done with that place.

i need to get my AA as fast as possible and move the fuck out. so yeah ( Read more... )

i don't know anymore...