Anger and Agony are,
Better than Misery.

So now that the holiday's are just about over, it seems as if everything is ready to go back to normal.  My holidays weren't too bad this year being as I actually got to see my family for Christmas, and also the fact that I wasn't in boot camp was a huge plus.  The only thing that kind of sucked was ( Read more... )

"But if you really loved me,
You would've endured my world."

Bare them,
Sevens,
Three to a pall,
Marks the,
Venom,
Lush and terminal.

I'm being someone I haven't been for four years.  Someone who is putting a girl before his friends, friends that were there for him before she ever was.  The friends that will be there long after she will.  I need to pull my head out of my ass, and stop trying so hard.  It's ( Read more... )

     As you all know, I'm currently in the revision stage of my book.  I currently have three people proof reading my book, and so far the only feedback I've gotten has been from Ashley.  Ashley suggested that I use extremely excessive profanity and offensive language within the book, and that I need to consider who my target audience is.  Now I've ( Read more... )

I feel so close to her, almost too close for my own good.  I can't help it that we get along so well.  The last girl that I got along this well with was Janelle, which makes me worry because we all know how that ended up.  I'm not going to let any previous relationships in the past affect me though because she is NOT Janelle (I have nothing against ( Read more... )

     And so the saga continues with this girl and I.  It appears as if it will never end, and also as if I will never figure out whether things are going well or not.  The last I heard of anything was when I originally explained my feelings to her, and she left me hanging with a "I don't know, I need to think about it," answer.  Well today I was ( Read more... )

To be honest I don't have a whole lot on my mind right now.  Life is good.

"Never forget the past, it holds the key to the future."
(I couldn't find the source of this quote.)

     I don't know how I even feel anymore.  I thought I was over her, but a few friends did point out the fact that if I was truly over her, I wouldn't really feel the need to make her jealous by showing up with another girl.  Yet when I hung out with her this weekend, I really didn't feel the same.  In fact she even texted me today asking me if ( Read more... )

      I know it's wrong, but I can't help it.  I have thoughts about showing up to our annual pay day dinner with another girl just to spite her.  To show her what she gets for thinking that I would wait forever.  It's a quest that I've already embarked upon, meeting new people simply just to fulfill this cruel intention.  I can honestly say this ( Read more... )

      It seems that almost three years and 420 updates later, that every now and then I like to reminisce through my Live Journal.  People who say that keeping a journal is gay can go fuck themselves because I find it rather interesting and sometimes amusing to read about what my day to day life was like anywhere from three years ago until now.  ( Read more... )