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I'm several hours away from being married. In Australia. The Japanese marriage still doesn't seem real to me but damn me, this does.
My greatest fear is that I'm going to chicken out and run. Second greatest fear is what will happen tomorrow. How am I going to change? How will friendships and feelings change?
I don't regret my time with An or my decision to stay with her but what if I never found her at the party and we never started the affair? Would I be with Syuu now? Maybe Bane? I doubt it on the Bane front. He needs to be as free as me. As I used to be.
I'm so scared.
As his best men, Bane and Fuji were given the night before some snazzy cufflinks. An hour or two before the wedding, Fuji was given a pocketwatch (with 'SF' engraved in the crest) and Bane received a high tech watch. Both had engraved somewhere "Giuro eterna amicizia" which is Italian for "pledge of eternal friendship" I wanted something like that in the gifts but then I watched KHR the next day and they gave me exactly that in Italian. So I borrowed it.
An, naturally, was given a gift an hour before the wedding as well. Pearl earrings that have a necklace but she'll get that when they return the hotel room after the partying. She was also given a note.
To a certain beautiful woman I know,
You will always be a princess to me and now the belle of the ball as well. You always sparkle but today, let me add to that. Please accept this gift as another token of our union and my affection for you. I haven’t seen your dress but Rivalee assures me my taste has yet to falter and they will go with your dress perfectly if you choose to wear the gift.
I look forward to seeing you walk down the aisle in what I know will be a stunning dress. How do I know? You will be wearing it and you make anything beautiful.
Your friend and future husband,
Sae