all that I wanted to say I'll never come home again.
so I was really agitated today and I don't even know why, but especially at gsa. because people were being very rude and not listening to me, which is just mean. I tried to give them time, but I'm easily annoyed. & so I got very angry cause I had things to talk about. so I tried to calm down and richard & julia tried to help. & plus there was just something else too, but I don't know what it was. & then mary later was like I've never seen you angry before.
(besides that, the club is good & we got some new members which is nice)
which leads me to another point: It's really annoying how people think I'm happy all the time, I'm a person too, I feel other things. I can get angry and mean and rude and some people say they could never get mad at me or hate me...well you know what I could make you hate me. Everything is not happy in my life, I've had some shit to deal with and being happy covers it up, but it's not all true. so guys please don't think that I'm miss happy-go lucky all the time, I have problems too. A lot of them. I'm still dealing with things. and thomas knows how it is, because people are the same way with him. We make mistakes, we're not perfect. & we don't try to be, it's just easier to be happy, because who wants to be around a depressed person all the time? No one, so yeah that's my rant.
&nick's party was fun, dancing and food and kissing. the usual.
oh&chris<3.
& the rest..I'll save that for another day.