Im really bored .. everyones around but noones doing anything. so i cleaned the house so fucking katie can shut her trap for once ... i really wish we can come up with 200 dollars to get our computer back...im coming home on thursday for thanks giving with brandyn im excited..3 people i want to see Richie, Wasserman,and MINDY.. :)

ok so im out of jail. No more warrent. Im really happy about that not happy that i dont have a computer any more , its at the pawn shop. Hopefully i can still get 200 dollars to get it back.

Going to sleep last night sucked.. brandyn and i got into this silly fight...we didnt sleep till like 6 am for some reason. Then i kept bothering him but only cause he was acting so ridiculous that i couldnt help but pushing it even farther to see how pissed he can get.. i mean he was talking to me like a kid so i made sure i did damn well to act ( Read more... )

Brandyns gone... at some retreat for therapy....lucky bastard....tonight got drunk not all that amazing passed out early, again... i just woke up , its 5:52am.. last thing i remember was coughing up a shit load then going to sleep...i suck..

Things have gotten so stale. So we stopped really hanging out with everyone.. its not really a bad thing cause with our friends its family so we dont always have to party but things just stopped being fun.. it sucks i wish it still was fun like it used to be in the summer and before all this shit got piled onto us...i cant wait to leave for philly ( Read more... )

Brandyns back from jail! fuck yea ive never been happier... I was wasted when he came home ..ive been wasted everyday since he's been in jail. Without him i feel like nothing so I guess now hes back i can stop drinking and be something again? i dont know what i saying....I went crazy trying to get money together to bail him out. i was stealing a ( Read more... )

Last night decided to drink again and take some barrs.. i had to make myself feel numb cause i really cant handle Brandon being in jail....i just drove around in his truck too.. i havent really ever driven a car before, i did pretty well....

ya ok so i just woke up at Lea's house dont know how the hell i got there... weird.. but i found some rum and whisky im awake and sober and brandyns in jail still...last night i guess was ok, i kept passing out anywhere i could lay down but ya this sober thing while Brandyns in jail isnt really working out so fuck i guess im drinking alone

Brandyn just got pulled over what the fuck.. i dotn know what to do with myself... so where the fuck is the whisky...........

I feel very good about things ...well kinda :/ ... 50% of me feels content with the way things are heading.... I'm growing up, living with Brandyn happy for the most part...Then that other 50% of me is soooo bored and discomforted with the way things ARE. Nothings changing no one is changing, things are trite. No job which is actually Ok, cause we' ( Read more... )