For what its worth, I know EXACTLY how you feel...
Of course, I was'nt engaged....but I had certaintly planned on it. I was looking at rings, even though the event was still a few years away.
Losing that other person is like a death in the family. It was for me. It is, more so, for you.
That "time heals everything" bullshit is just that ....bullshit; it's been months and i still hurt. However, time does make it "more tolerable".
Chin up Amy. Your still you. There maybe only half of you left, but its still half of a good person. And, like me you went down fighting...no better way to go out eh?
So hold your head up, and try and get your glow back. Your a cool chick, so you have no reason not to...
you are already complete. you are a beautiful strong person and you are gonna get through this. Life sucks. especially for us fricken artists. nothing can ever go smoothly..b/c then what the fuck would we write about. it makes me want to smash my guitar, burn my notebooks, and start smoking newports. and live in a house in the suburbs with two kids, a beautiful man, and a minivan in the yard. but if i destroyed everything that is me..i'd probaly just end up a crackhead or something...so fuck it i'll keep writing and being who i am. keep being who you are. this hurts. it really does. sometimes i miss jesse so much it kills me. the hardest part is viewing the world with another person for all that time and then having to face it all on your own again. its scary. but you will get through. call me if you need me. 860-564-4244 860-389-3615
Sometimes, when you try to jump up to sit higher, you only end up landing on your balls, and falling to the ground in pain. Being torn is hard, I know. But sometimes you need to just deal with your swollen testicles and try to jump again. This time, land with your legs spread a little more. Gotta make room.
Call us sometime kid. We haven't seen you in too long. You have our numbers, so you have no excuse.
i keep trying to tell myself that too...if it was meant to be, it'll happen. it's really hard to think of it that way. i've always had a tendency to try and force things, but here, i haven't and i'm completely lost. it's like...you know it's the only way to do it, but as each day goes by...what's the point of waking up? i don't know what i am trying to say, but i guess i could say i pretty much know how you feel, you know? except for that i broke it up and i am so not ready to go back. so, um, yea...time...but definitely enjoy being with your friends and take the time to understand yourself. that's all the advice i've got right now....
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Of course, I was'nt engaged....but I had certaintly planned on it. I was looking at rings, even though the event was still a few years away.
Losing that other person is like a death in the family. It was for me. It is, more so, for you.
That "time heals everything" bullshit is just that ....bullshit; it's been months and i still hurt. However, time does make it "more tolerable".
Chin up Amy. Your still you. There maybe only half of you left, but its still half of a good person. And, like me you went down fighting...no better way to go out eh?
So hold your head up, and try and get your glow back. Your a cool chick, so you have no reason not to...
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Call us sometime kid. We haven't seen you in too long. You have our numbers, so you have no excuse.
- JnB
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