I think I found someone that takes my mind off of Matthew.

...but I dont think I can have him.

of course.

I.
AM.
PATHETIC.

um, fuck the little myspace whores that have matthew on their top "friends".

I want him back.
now.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.

I'm about to do something I always hated.
I'm about to do a bad thing.

god, if you're really there.
forgive me?

I haven't done anything.
but I feel so fucking guilty.

I should REALLY stay away from him.

but we all know I don't have the will to do what my conscience says.

just so everyone knows,
I'm more than likely...NEVER getting over Matthew.
the dreams, the memories, the hope.
keep dragging me back.
I've tried and I've failed.
I'm lost. I'm angry.
I'm desperate.
for him

dear Nick Skowron,
grow a pair you fucking tool.

I just want to get this out there:

I am DAMN PROUD of my vast knowledge of the PS1 game Twisted Metal 2.

I want Matthew back ( Read more... )

I feel like its too soon for me to be moving on from Matthew again. But he's just a waste of my time. I could love Matthew with all my heart, but I don't deserve to be left like that.

It wouldn't seem like it...but Yohman is actually an amazing boy and I like him a lot.

watching shitty TV shows and cuddling is the GREATEST healing I've ever had.

its ADDIE LITOWITZ'S BIRTHDAY TOMORRRRRRRROW!!!!!!