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[please_break_me]

i live two lives..... my unhappy life that makes everyone else happy(day to day life)and my meidcated life that helps my true feelings come out(while no one is around). i keep everyone happy all the time and i stay unhappy but i fake the smiles. im really not all that happy and it sucks. i havent been happy for about a year and a half. im not doing

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[beyondtheflesh]

I dont know what goes on with you behind closed doors. The only thing that I do know is what you tell me and what I read on here. All I can say is that I am very sorry I couldnt do more for you. I wish I could fix all the problems in your life. Your not weak, you just feel that you are. By being able to hide the emotion that you really feel and being able to put a smile on your face as you walk out of the door every morning makes you a strong person. There are not alot of people that can face the day. They dont come out of their house. They are scared that someone will ask whats wrong and they will just break down. Some people are afraid to let other people see them cry. But its not a bad thing all of the time. Dont worry though everything will get better soon. I cant say that medication is the right way of going about things. I am a very strong believer that medication is a crutch to get through life. But then again who am I to talk....I smoke cigarettes all day. But the cigarettes dont make me perk up. Its just my thing. But I hope

[cerialkiller7]

babe..iam always here for you if you need to talk to someone..i hope all gets better for you! my new cell # is.. (910)574-3021..call me sometime.. i love you the mostest times 10! lol