stevielovefish: what do you see when you look at me ( Read more... )

i have only had a song fit my life once. In 1997-1998 this is it ( Read more... )

off limits and insecure ( Read more... )

Fuck you... fuck yourself
put your head on the shelf
razors burn and sting
always a need for dying.

I'm your whore, rape me
fuck my eyes so i wont see
but i feel the hatred you cause
you've slammed my head into the wall.

it's probably not good when you fall asleep at night working out how you would kill yourself. I came up with some pretty interesting ways. damnit i wish i didn't know my parents cared about me. i wish they were extremely evil bastards. It would be easier to cut them out of my life first so they wont feel it so much but... i don't want to wait that ( Read more... )

fucking melo! damnit surver blew. going to shoot sara. I wrote a poem .... going to post it later.

I feel like i'm stuck in a constant ebb. Nothing ever comes easily. Fuck you and your fucking promises. All you say is lies. What you say might as well be fire, it burns strong but always dies. I can't let go of anything. it will always be her fault. People just wont stop pissing me off. I'm only 17 fucking years old and already exaushted with my ( Read more... )

A lot of stuff has happened lately and I never wrote in this once so i guess it's a good time to start so my friends can see my life progress while I am gone. Right now I have myself scheduled to leave on the 27th... but it might be later then that so we can get everything together. doing this all for school and I hope it goes well. I'm going to ( Read more... )

yesterday I died. i am not sure what to write.... i lost what i wrote a minute ago... just writing for the first time.