i fuct up.

but i wanted this to go more smoothly.
i want it to be over with, but i want to let him go gently. I cant stand unneccessary animosity...isnt all animosity unneccessary?

i am a stupid girl.
i am not in love with him, but i love him. he is young, and he will understand when he grows. i cannot feel tied down. i cannot. i wont-and what's worse ( Read more... )

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in this rare moment, i feel like being wanted. so i turned to writing. it has been too long...since i have last spoken without using this useless mouth. I grow weary. and my lover and i have had tons of quarrels. i keep wondering if this is right. i cannot hold myself to one person it seems. perhaps it is so that i am never to maintain one single ( Read more... )

referring to the myth of the metals....the color heirarchy in the world is at most sickening. but what sucks even more is the fact that people actually buy into these things. sad? yes...very.

what is even more disturbing is that a few people i associate with daily have this sort of mentality. Now, most films that are created, rarely ever have ( Read more... )

soon.
haha. i am trying to look up. who says i cant make things work? i can and i am doing it. sooo there! :P
shit...i wanna go...umm...out somewhere hahah. have to wait until next weekend. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
why my piggy? **random entry btw*

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yeah. it feels good not to be bothered by primericas and "grandmas"...blehhhh. ohhh i went to death lastnight. i was soooo tired for work, but i had fun. out of shape. LUCKILY! 24 hr fitness is offering a free one month trial for our store, and 24 hr fitness is right along the way to our store. :) yayYYYYY! that should be fun. ummm...alex and i ( Read more... )

i could feel myself underneath.BR>whatever.

i have learned to breathe again. I want to stretch my legs "it was you, breathless and all"
won't you get higher and higher, as i feel it...feeling fine. fuck you, i don't want it no more.

so tonight, i made a possibly very large mistake, though it was tiny in my eyes. i kissed the lips ov something so pure ( Read more... )

change your style again.ok, last night was pretty great.

i got shitfaced, and laughed without purpose. alex and i have been giving each other space. i am learning to loosen up. my new roommates are wonderfully fucking awesome! they are sooo open minded and patient, i am learning a lot from them-really, a lot. but fuck we had soooo much fun. i was ( Read more... )

because nobody knows you, and nobody gives a damn either way.i ain.t no hero.

so i can see that much has changed...well, somewhat-since my last post. my mum is not out here. she is in trouble, and i miss her, and i need her here. we all do. i love her sooo much.

work still sucks. i tolerate it.
i am listening to WOLF PARADE right now. hence the ( Read more... )

things are well. i guess. something...different is happening. i have a little ( Read more... )