SO today. Was my first day back at school. Since Mel.

I dunno, it was weird.

I'm getting more okay. Which is good. I haven't thought about it anymore and I'm just kind of drifting. You know. Whatever. I'm alright. Or I will be.

I saw Andrew and I got really fucking upset with myself for no reason. First because I thought it was such a stupid thing ( Read more... )

And the other day while we were driving back to the hotel in Allentown, I got that old empty lonely feeling that I haven't gotten for a long long time. I didn't even get it when Mel died. I was just mad when melly died, frustrated. fuckers. Those fuckers who put her underground. I hate the fucking government. I hate bigotry. Fucking racists.

It ( Read more... )

okay i know i am constantly abandoning lj. because it's nice to have but there is just. shit. i don't know. and i feel a little bad being stupid but not really because everything was just really fucked up.  and all these things happened.

like.

mel is dead.

mel is fucking dead.

mel mel mel mel

is gone. she is gone. gone gone.

she did it.

she ( Read more... )

I was at my grandparent's house all today. It was boring. I watched beach volleyball on the Olympics (no Ian *sigh*).

I actually kind of felt like going out, which is a first in about a WEEK, but...Nick's gone and Roland's gone, and I don't know where the hell Lindsey, Jon, etc. are. And I can't find my cell to see if they've called me. Oh well... ( Read more... )

OH MY FUCKING GOODNESS IAN THORPE = SEX

*drool*

He wins the award for best Australian export.
( k. here's a good picture. and it's big. yay. )

Here are my 12 favorite pictures from what Nick took :D

Well, actually, he told me which ones where his favorites (about 30, then I picked MY very very very favorites out of those because I am WAY too lazy to upload&resize 30 :P)

The point of these pictures is not ME, but rather how Nick takes uber-cool photos and how he makes me look awesome, even ( Read more... )

About 3 weeks ago or a month or something I BEGGED Nick to take photos of me because he is a GREAT photographer and he's going to performing arts high school for photography (he's so excited :D) so he was like FIIINE so one day he brough his digital over and took about 60-80 pictures of me, in about an hour or half an hour or something, and I love ( Read more... )

( I thought this was funny :D )

Uhm. I was nice. On the phone with Eva. I was compassionate. I honestly tried my goddamned best (which is hard for me, because I'm not really a nice person) to be nice. She hangs up on me after I snap at her when she starts yelling at me for being a fucking bitch and all that. Here is the email I just got.
who do you think yuo are, my mother? youre ( Read more... )

Today I went over to Dan (Finer's) house with Lindsey and we just watched movies all afternoon and hung out. We watched Loaded Weapon 1 (Emilio whatshisface...BRAT PACK! haha) and about 10 minutes of the Bourne Identity. So yeah, uneventful day ( Read more... )