It just really hurts inside, and it's all my fault.  I wish that I could stop screwing things up for people, like I have been doing all along.

Note: He asked me the first week of March, so it wasn't like my answer was a surprise, but I had no idea about this whole follow-up ask-out.  He said he wanted to do something more elaborate ( Read more... )

I'M GOING TO CHINA THIS SUMMER! I'M GOING TO CHINA THIS SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!  AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You know you have listened to the ramblings of a Pokemon-obsessed little boy too much when you have discovered you can not only pronounce the Pokemon names but imitate Ash perfectly. *Is ashamed ( Read more... )

Friday was so the best day ever!  Went to distribution early and got bagels (therefore paper was also passed out, meaning my article is finally done).  I aced a history quiz by mostly guessing.  I booked a babysitting job for four kids which means lots of money for prom.  SARA ABARBANEL surprised me at school.  I finally spoke to my sister who was ( Read more... )

7:15 am: At school stuffing papers and enjoying donuts
7:45 am-3:10 pm: Schooling
3:11 pm-6:00pm: Doing Tech
6:01pm-9:00pm: Working House/Comedy Sportz (Teachers vs. Students and Mr. Shea is playing!!!!!  We're all wearing ties in support)
9:10 pm-10:45pm: Salsa Dance
10:55 pm-11:45 pm: In-n-Out

TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE THE BESTEST DAY EVER!!!!!!!!!!

Me: "Geez you guys!  First you take my wood, then you take my goggles..."
Shawn: "We just take everything you have."
Me: "Why don't you just take the clothes right off my back?  Geez..."
Shawn: "Really?"

You know, I don't think my life could get any more emotional.  More than anything, I really wish my article had not upset them.  That was the absolute last thing that I wanted to happen.  And it did.

I had to cover the car accident that killed Ryan Hwang for the paper.   Not just because I'm assistant news editor and I knew some of those involved, but I had to do it for me.  My friend Jessica died on January 3rd of this month.  She was living in Orange County, and so I was notified 5 days later by a friend.  She had heard this news from ( Read more... )

Okay, so I think I have decided this:  I am not mad at them.  I am not angry at them.  I am not hurt by them.  I am angry at the situation.  Made uncomfortable by the situation.  Hurt by the situation.  Considering everything that happened,  I think they made the best choices they could under those circumstances, ones that avoided hurting me as ( Read more... )