For You I Bleed Myself Dry
For You I Bleed Myself Dry
Changmin/Sooyoung; g
sometimes we need to remind someone of the truth they almost always forgets
(Look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do...)
The first time his heart spoke to her, they were beneath the balding branches of a cherry blossom tree under a starlit summer sky. The remnants of the fallen petals, brown and withered, formed shapes under her feet. The warm gust of evening summer breeze made the stars blink but she can't find it in her heart to appreciate the beauty of the night sky.
(and they were all yellow)
“Sooyoung-ssi, Taeyeon is looking for you.”
Her line of thought broke upon hearing his voice. There was the subtle tone of reprimand and the underlying tone of care. The tears on her eyes did not make him less handsomer when she looked up to gaze at his figure.
“Are you - why are you crying?” the tone was much gentler, his deep brown eyes softer as a look of concern crossed over his features. Unmindful of everything else around them, he held her hand and walked her around the tree, hiding them from people that were passing by.
(I came along, I wrote a song for you and all the things you do)
“Changmin-oppa...” the last two syllables were muttered faintly.
They never talked before and had only given each other casual greetings of acknowledgement. Changmin knew he should be surprised at the sudden retort but all he heard right there and then was the soft plea for comfort and sympathy from the broken girl. He surprised himself when his hands made its way around her small body, wrapping her in his warm embrace. He let her bury her sorrows on his chest, stroking her hair and humming words of assurance as more tears leaked from her eyes.
(and they were all yellow)
It might be the gentle feel of his skin against hers or the rhythmic drumming of his heartbeat or the silent message of concern which calmed her; but as Sooyoung poured her agony into Changmin's arms, she filled him stories he need not need to know about the nth time her already shattered heart has been broken.
“Oppa... Why?”
His answer came in the form of a sigh.
(So then I took my turn. Oh all the things I've done...)
“Some things are just not meant to be. Someday, you'll find the one for you. Don't lose hope.”
She sniffed and hugged him tighter. He burrowed his nose into her hair and whispered those words.
“You're beautiful, Sooyoung-ah.”
(and it was all yellow)
It was more than a year after they spoke to each other again. At a deserted corridor, their paths crossed. Sooyoung gave him a thrifty smile and Changmin returned her with an understanding gaze. She was about to turn on a corner when he called her name out loud.
(I drew a line for you. Oh, what a thing to do)
Not knowing anything else to say, the only word that came out of her mouth was “rooftop.”
That afternoon after tedious practice and endless rehearsals, Sooyoung remembered the last word she spoke that noon. She skipped one step at a time as she ran up the stairs, fingers crossed and heart hoping that the young man had got the message. There, Changmin sat on the edge of the rooftop, eyes far searching for something along the golden skyline of Seoul.
“Changmin...” she stopped to catch her breath and to collect her thoughts “...oppa.”
The man smiled at her direction and pointed at the empty space near him. “The sunset looks beautiful here. Come.”
(and it was all yellow)
She walked towards him, sat on the space, and shared the scenery with her friend. They met again the day after. And the day after. And the day after that. Without the knowledge of all other people except just the two of them, they made up for the days of not-knowing each other.
On the two hundred and first day of their casual, friendly trysts, Sooyoung readied herself the entire day for a simple message.
“Oppa...”
“Hmmm?”
“Thank you.”
Changmin didn't answer. Instead, his hand searched for hers and Sooyoung felt no other words will be enough to state what she felt at that moment.
(Your skin... oh yeah your skin and bones)
Five days after that shared sunset at the rooftop, SNSD was practicing for their first Japanese performance. Their first flight to Japan already scheduled for the next day and everybody was exerting their best effort to not disappoint the eager audience waiting for them.
The music has just ended when the door blasted open showing a tall figure. He moved fast towards the center of the room and grabbed the hand of a surprised long-legged girl.
“Listen, this is the last time I will say this to anyone.”
Sooyoung looked up at a panting Changmin as the rest of the girls stared at the scene with interest.
“I love you.”
(Turn into something beautiful)
Had Changmin held her a little less tightly, she might have fallen on the ground already.
"Oppa?”
“I said that was the last time I will say that to anyone.” He pulled her closer towards him and pressed her a kiss on the forehead when the look of shock on her face did not vanish.
He cupped her face with his hands, their foreheads against each other.
(Do you know, you know I love you so)
"Saranghae.” He said it slowly and softly, good enough for her to hear and let each syllable sink into the depths of her soul.
“Do you want me to repeat it again?” His warm smile made her feel like her heart would burst from too much happiness.
“W-why?”
“Stop asking for reasons. I just do.”
“I mean... why just now, you stupid crazy person!” She balled her fists and started hitting him on the chest.
“I've been here since the start. I just can't let you go to Japan without leaving your heart with me.”
(You know I love you so...)
In between giggles and punches, Changmin closed the gap between them. He pressed his lips gently against hers, simply letting them touch for awhile before he coaxed her mouth open with his lower lip. The kiss was soft, gentle, and full of promise. He pulled away softly before supplying the truth she did not need to hear, but had long done so from the person who made her realize it.
“You're beautiful, Sooyoung-ah.”
(Look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do...)
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Note: this is dedicated to the awesome unnie who helped me a lot in LJ. HAPPY BIRTHDAY bamthegreat.
It's still June 1 in my country. ^^
Changmin/Sooyoung; g
sometimes we need to remind someone of the truth they almost always forgets
(Look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do...)
The first time his heart spoke to her, they were beneath the balding branches of a cherry blossom tree under a starlit summer sky. The remnants of the fallen petals, brown and withered, formed shapes under her feet. The warm gust of evening summer breeze made the stars blink but she can't find it in her heart to appreciate the beauty of the night sky.
(and they were all yellow)
“Sooyoung-ssi, Taeyeon is looking for you.”
Her line of thought broke upon hearing his voice. There was the subtle tone of reprimand and the underlying tone of care. The tears on her eyes did not make him less handsomer when she looked up to gaze at his figure.
“Are you - why are you crying?” the tone was much gentler, his deep brown eyes softer as a look of concern crossed over his features. Unmindful of everything else around them, he held her hand and walked her around the tree, hiding them from people that were passing by.
(I came along, I wrote a song for you and all the things you do)
“Changmin-oppa...” the last two syllables were muttered faintly.
They never talked before and had only given each other casual greetings of acknowledgement. Changmin knew he should be surprised at the sudden retort but all he heard right there and then was the soft plea for comfort and sympathy from the broken girl. He surprised himself when his hands made its way around her small body, wrapping her in his warm embrace. He let her bury her sorrows on his chest, stroking her hair and humming words of assurance as more tears leaked from her eyes.
(and they were all yellow)
It might be the gentle feel of his skin against hers or the rhythmic drumming of his heartbeat or the silent message of concern which calmed her; but as Sooyoung poured her agony into Changmin's arms, she filled him stories he need not need to know about the nth time her already shattered heart has been broken.
“Oppa... Why?”
His answer came in the form of a sigh.
(So then I took my turn. Oh all the things I've done...)
“Some things are just not meant to be. Someday, you'll find the one for you. Don't lose hope.”
She sniffed and hugged him tighter. He burrowed his nose into her hair and whispered those words.
“You're beautiful, Sooyoung-ah.”
(and it was all yellow)
It was more than a year after they spoke to each other again. At a deserted corridor, their paths crossed. Sooyoung gave him a thrifty smile and Changmin returned her with an understanding gaze. She was about to turn on a corner when he called her name out loud.
(I drew a line for you. Oh, what a thing to do)
Not knowing anything else to say, the only word that came out of her mouth was “rooftop.”
That afternoon after tedious practice and endless rehearsals, Sooyoung remembered the last word she spoke that noon. She skipped one step at a time as she ran up the stairs, fingers crossed and heart hoping that the young man had got the message. There, Changmin sat on the edge of the rooftop, eyes far searching for something along the golden skyline of Seoul.
“Changmin...” she stopped to catch her breath and to collect her thoughts “...oppa.”
The man smiled at her direction and pointed at the empty space near him. “The sunset looks beautiful here. Come.”
(and it was all yellow)
She walked towards him, sat on the space, and shared the scenery with her friend. They met again the day after. And the day after. And the day after that. Without the knowledge of all other people except just the two of them, they made up for the days of not-knowing each other.
On the two hundred and first day of their casual, friendly trysts, Sooyoung readied herself the entire day for a simple message.
“Oppa...”
“Hmmm?”
“Thank you.”
Changmin didn't answer. Instead, his hand searched for hers and Sooyoung felt no other words will be enough to state what she felt at that moment.
(Your skin... oh yeah your skin and bones)
Five days after that shared sunset at the rooftop, SNSD was practicing for their first Japanese performance. Their first flight to Japan already scheduled for the next day and everybody was exerting their best effort to not disappoint the eager audience waiting for them.
The music has just ended when the door blasted open showing a tall figure. He moved fast towards the center of the room and grabbed the hand of a surprised long-legged girl.
“Listen, this is the last time I will say this to anyone.”
Sooyoung looked up at a panting Changmin as the rest of the girls stared at the scene with interest.
“I love you.”
(Turn into something beautiful)
Had Changmin held her a little less tightly, she might have fallen on the ground already.
"Oppa?”
“I said that was the last time I will say that to anyone.” He pulled her closer towards him and pressed her a kiss on the forehead when the look of shock on her face did not vanish.
He cupped her face with his hands, their foreheads against each other.
(Do you know, you know I love you so)
"Saranghae.” He said it slowly and softly, good enough for her to hear and let each syllable sink into the depths of her soul.
“Do you want me to repeat it again?” His warm smile made her feel like her heart would burst from too much happiness.
“W-why?”
“Stop asking for reasons. I just do.”
“I mean... why just now, you stupid crazy person!” She balled her fists and started hitting him on the chest.
“I've been here since the start. I just can't let you go to Japan without leaving your heart with me.”
(You know I love you so...)
In between giggles and punches, Changmin closed the gap between them. He pressed his lips gently against hers, simply letting them touch for awhile before he coaxed her mouth open with his lower lip. The kiss was soft, gentle, and full of promise. He pulled away softly before supplying the truth she did not need to hear, but had long done so from the person who made her realize it.
“You're beautiful, Sooyoung-ah.”
(Look at the stars, look how they shine for you and everything you do...)
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Note: this is dedicated to the awesome unnie who helped me a lot in LJ. HAPPY BIRTHDAY bamthegreat.
It's still June 1 in my country. ^^