Guilt

[plucky]

Overwhelming guilt. Guilt that I survived, guilt that I am not there still because it is still going on, guilt that I could not save or defend them, guilt because it was my job, as an NCO, to put on a smiling face and soldier on even though the only thing keeping me on my feet was duty. See the happy cheerful youth on their way to the AO, knowing

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[paka]

I wish I knew what I could say to help. Because of the U-2 stuff I kind of, sort of, vaguely have an idea of how you must feel, and even then I can only barely wrap my brain around what it must be like for you.