"i can't go on not loving you" CHEESY!

[plunkdafied]

it's all in my head. i think about it over and over again...tim mcgraw and nelly. that's really fucked up but it works some how. i was looking at a tim mcgraw 2005 calendar and it was like girlie boner. i felt weird being attracted to a cowboy singer whose balding but hides it under a hat. i'm attracted to the weirdest people

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[lostazndragon]

lol girlie boner.
BEST. PHRASE. EVER.

[plunkdafied]

hahah YES!
that and lady wood.

[charcoalnipples]

i completely feel you miss j. i think it's that you are not in need of the drama of the dating scene (DRAMA: if you go for her, this one will be hurt and that one will beat you up and another one will be your best friend for 5 minutes and the other one will starting dating guys) and the ones who look all too perfect have this sort of questionable look that makes me think "so, do you wanna FUCK girls OR do you want to DATE girls" cos that's my biggest problem: differentiating. just keep in mind that (and to quote margaret cho's mother) "eburyboody.... liddle bit gay

[plunkdafied]

this eighteen year old... i'm so jealous.

you are well dressed eme. you are style. and i know you're not one of the pretentious ones - you're special like that... an untouchable only to the lucky ones.

bull dykes/hockey dykes - the whole "dyke" concept in general i avoid. i hate that word so association to it is just turn off.

i think i'm not in need of the drama either. it seems like the gay scene in my age group are a circle of girls who fuck around with each other. everyone's tainted. everyones been used. it creeps me out. that and i am kind of "seeing" someone right now. a girl i dated and cried over when things ended. and now things are at this unknown point which i hate and love at the sametime. i like the not knowing but i hate the insecurity. i find myself always wondering if she's just half with me now because she's waiting for something better to come along. but for me... i only want her. but i trust her ... and she makes me happy. so the time spent being happy definately is worth it if i end up sad and alone.

[charcoalnipples]

thanks! you are special times a million!

i made out with her again last night. but better than last week. ugh. i hate being drunk when shit like that happens tho....

then she asked me if i lean more towards boys or girls. and i said my last big relationship was w/ a girl. altho i'm jumbled up in a half-assed/too much drama relationship with my best guy friend. so what the hell? i like what i see. and i enjoy very much of what i saw in the girl from the bird.

i can't remember if i asked her the same question or not. i can't remember her answer.

[ohmanpompom]

I don't think you're pretentious, but definitely well-dressed. I'm sure there's a match, there has to be.

[plunkdafied]

thanks.
if you find me a match.
let me know?

[bohemian_lover]

CHRIST IN A COFFEE FILTER! I've been thinking the same shit about the Edmonton gay-community. With my eighteenth birthday dawning in less than a month, I'm scared that I'll go to the Roost or whatever gay bar I choose and get hit on by a bull-dyke who will have gelled hair circa 1952, or I'll fall helplessly and hopelessly in lust with a femme, who will think she's too good for me... damn the man, or the woman, who decided this particular vicious cycle as my life-span.

Happy hunting, Jessica,

-Jo