tricked again by your fake but oh so good act of "i care lets start over".
broken again by your fake sincerity.
fallen again to false promises and fake memories.

i don't need anyones sympathy. i don't want to be her back up plan. i just want to stop caring about a girl who will never love me back.

if i had a gun i'd shoot myself in the head.
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i don't have a gun.

i'm going through something right now. an unidentified nausea. i'm not sure about the cause or the reason but it's there - it's laying beside me in my bed, it's printed on my skin... it's sleeping on my paper ( Read more... )

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I AM OFFICIALLY EIGHTEEN.

i love myself today. not like yesterday.
i got a happy birthday over the phone with trish, lisa and emily. aka - nice rack, crispy hands and winona ryder eyes.
i want more!!! msn is for suckers call me assholes.
it's only one o'clock people... WHERE'S THE REST OF THE LOVE??

big day today <3333

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ani difranco at folk fest tonight.

i'd be excited but i have to go with lisa and her thirty year old looking knob for a boyfriend. i actually tried to get out of going tonight that's how badly i do not want to play the third wheel to their hetero date. she begged and pleaded with me so i had to give in... hopefully ani can take my attention away ( Read more... )

on august 13th 1986 i popped out of my mom's womb. now it's 17 years and 356 days to be exact that i have lived.

next friday i will be EIGHTEEN. i will be fucking legal... well in edmonton i will be. so i'm going to do the whyte ave bar scene, pre-drink at the fringe; anyone over age or has a fake is welcome to come. i think i'm going to throw an ( Read more... )

i'm going to re-teach myself the piano.
i'm going to love her a little harder.
i'm going to love her a little less.
i'm going to pull you off your peddlestool.
i'm going to write a song motivated by something happy.
i'm going to be honest.
i'm going to be a better friend.
i'm going to treat them like equals.
i'm going to expect less from her.
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i'm going to calgary tommorow. i wonder if i'll have any fun ( Read more... )