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I was just thinking a lot and I don't mean to offend anyone by what I'm about to write. I don't usually write about this topic either...
my entire life, I've believed that God had a plan for everyone. if something happened, it was because God wanted it that way. I've never really questioned that belief ever. but recently I started thinking. I'm not saying that there is no God's plan, but then sometimes I wonder, then why were some people meant to get sick? why were some people meant to live in poverty. I read this story recently on how when God knows that you're in so much pain, He'll take you, so you won't feel any pain. and when you go to Heaven, he'll help you keep in contact with the people you love. but then why was there pain in the first place. saying all these things right now make me feel like I'm betraying God, but these are questions that I ponder sometimes even though I know I shouldn't.
you know how a lot of people go... "I hate my life, or I want to kill myself." sometimes, when I'm very angry, i ALMOST say it, but then in that split second, i remember that my life is SO much better than so many other people in this world and stop myself. then I start to think about the other people and start this whole discussion right in my brain. but as dumb as it sounds, its a kind of pressure. and I'm not saying that God is pressure becuase i know that God is ALWAYS there for me. and when I feel like I can't tell anyone something, i ALWAYS tell God. that's why I never want to EVER question God's plan. but for some reason, I just KEEP thinking about it.
let's take something stupid for example. everyone has some dream school that they wanted to go to, or worked hard for. but a lot of times, they don't get in. Well, usually I'd just put as an answer, God had other plans for that person. everyone has a purpose. but then why? I'm not blaming God for anything. I'm just wondering why. and I know I probably won't get these answers becuase i'm not even supposed to ask these question in the first place. like then why was there a World War 2? why were innocent babies burned? these babies can't even talk yet. Then what was the purpose of that baby?
so then I started to think that maybe God is always there for us, He loves us, but he lets us decide our own fate. But then its so hard to believe that too. I don't know anymore, I'm just so confused.
okay sorry for emo post. have fun guys!
-Deborah
-does anyone want to go to raging waters? I REALLY want to go!!
my entire life, I've believed that God had a plan for everyone. if something happened, it was because God wanted it that way. I've never really questioned that belief ever. but recently I started thinking. I'm not saying that there is no God's plan, but then sometimes I wonder, then why were some people meant to get sick? why were some people meant to live in poverty. I read this story recently on how when God knows that you're in so much pain, He'll take you, so you won't feel any pain. and when you go to Heaven, he'll help you keep in contact with the people you love. but then why was there pain in the first place. saying all these things right now make me feel like I'm betraying God, but these are questions that I ponder sometimes even though I know I shouldn't.
you know how a lot of people go... "I hate my life, or I want to kill myself." sometimes, when I'm very angry, i ALMOST say it, but then in that split second, i remember that my life is SO much better than so many other people in this world and stop myself. then I start to think about the other people and start this whole discussion right in my brain. but as dumb as it sounds, its a kind of pressure. and I'm not saying that God is pressure becuase i know that God is ALWAYS there for me. and when I feel like I can't tell anyone something, i ALWAYS tell God. that's why I never want to EVER question God's plan. but for some reason, I just KEEP thinking about it.
let's take something stupid for example. everyone has some dream school that they wanted to go to, or worked hard for. but a lot of times, they don't get in. Well, usually I'd just put as an answer, God had other plans for that person. everyone has a purpose. but then why? I'm not blaming God for anything. I'm just wondering why. and I know I probably won't get these answers becuase i'm not even supposed to ask these question in the first place. like then why was there a World War 2? why were innocent babies burned? these babies can't even talk yet. Then what was the purpose of that baby?
so then I started to think that maybe God is always there for us, He loves us, but he lets us decide our own fate. But then its so hard to believe that too. I don't know anymore, I'm just so confused.
okay sorry for emo post. have fun guys!
-Deborah
-does anyone want to go to raging waters? I REALLY want to go!!