"She murmured softly, breathlessly staring out into the oceanic horizon, "And when he's near me..." she gazed whistfully into limitless waters, "I only wish I looked as beautiful as I feel ( Read more... )

last night was so strange. it went from awesome to sad to shitty. i feel like such a fuckup all the time. i guess it cant be good.

christmas is in 3.5 weeks. my birthday is tomorrow. 3 months is on friday.
i feel like im always looking foward to things, like i never have anything. i know its not true. but im always just waiting for something.

i dont feel good...
damn periods. claud, i think youre right about sex and stuff making it come earlier. and poo on that.

brad is way cool.
cassie is way cool.
jesse is way hot.
i mean cool.

I WANT MORE! more more more.

and chocolate...hmmm...steak....

today was an ok day. dad was at his worst. ugh. made me feel like shit all over again.
as much as i love rachel, she (and her friends.!!) make me feel like shit all the time, too. mostly just raye though.
but i got the job at balducci's (formerly hay day), and i got jesse's present.

yeah, i think thats all. peace.

so im about to go take a quick shower, then dad is going to drop me and claud off at the mall (its gunna be killer). yesterday wasnt too bad, i love animals, and my family, even if i hate to admit it sometimes. i also puked cause i ate too much. kinda did it on purpose, but i know it wouldve happened anyway. and no, it wasnt cause i didnt want to ( Read more... )

i saw so many people today...=D

the good:
-claudia
-jesse
-julie
-keisha
-brian hall (well..yesterday..shh)
-claudia wants me to put preston, but i think she cares more than i do... ^_~
-I HAVE RED HAIR AGAIN!
-friendleys

the bad:
-my mom
-mother
-madre
-robyn oestricher
-robin feinberg

the ugly:-"claudia post-hairdye" she chips in ( Read more... )

not only do i love you because of who you are, but i love you because of who i am when im with you.

not only do i love you but i love this relationship. its so special and unique. znd you exhaust me.
jesse, btw..IMA KILL YOU FOR BRANDING ME, GODDAMN IT!!

hmm...i dun wanna run this season...>_my cat is amazing ( Read more... )

claudia comes home in...10 HOURS ( Read more... )