So what do I do?

[pocketnaomi]

In the wreckage of a life, I still need to survive.

Disabled, alone, impoverished, with children to raise, I need to find a way to survive. The people who cared for me in this city have turned against me out of loyalty to my abuser. The one exception, technoshaman, is moving around the world in less than a year. I can't leave the area without losing my

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[mdlbear]

I'm here. It's a thousand miles away, so there's only so much I can do, but I'm here and I'll do what I can.

[pocketnaomi]

Thanks. I know there's only so much anyone can do, but I'll need every drop of it -- from you, from anyone who is willing, even if all they can offer is good wishes and long-distance hugs. Because there's only so much I can do too, and I've just maxed it out entirely for now.

[mdlbear]

*hugs* -- it's a start.

[bercilakslady]

Sweetie, I'm here. I'm even further away, but I'm still here.

[bardling]

*hugs* I think there is a fair amount of staying out it that looks like sympathy going elsewhere. Obviously, I'm not there, I may be wrong.

And regardless, I'm still here, for all it's halfway around the world. *hugs*

[pocketnaomi]

Thank you. *hugs* It helps to hear you're still around, though you're one of the few I've never seriously doubted. And I don't actually mind the sympathy going elsewhere, I just wish some of it went to me too. If it were both, I would be okay with that; it's not my business to care whether people sympathize with someone else. It's feeling so incredibly alone that hurts, and that's not about her, just about me.

[bardling]

*hugs*
It is an entirely ok reaction to feel the way you feel. I truly do not wish to sound as if I am criticising that in any way.
What I *do* wish to do is try and remind you/help you see the sympathy that *is* there for you. To help you stay strong against the doubts and disheartening inner voices and focus on the positives there are, even in a situation as shitty as yours, however small or few they may be or seem to be. Looking down in this entry I see quite a bit of sympathy, which I am glad of, for you.

*hugs* I wish you the strength to get through this day, and the next, one step at a time.

And Kudos on all you have achieved so far.

[rinioth]

*HUG*

I know you are not very religious, but could your local synagogue/church maybe help?

[pocketnaomi]

They're set up for short-term needs, mostly, and it's the long term that's the problem. If I get to the point where I do need help just to eat that week or pay that month's rent, I'll go to them, and I should research what help is available in the meantime, but it's basically the wrong kind of problem for their programs, I think.

[tigerbright]

Oh hon. Good wishes.

Would it help if you could move down to the Bay Area near mandelbear, or back to the northeast nearer to mneme and Bercilakslady and others who hold you dear? I'd help fundraise for any way of moving you closer to chosen family.

[msminlr]

I'm afraid "move down to the Bay Area" comes under the heading of "can't leave the area without losing my children".

IMHO, it is time for locals who have been 'staying out of it' and who DO sympathize with pocketnaomi to step forward.

[tigerbright]

Amen to that!

And I'll fundraise to help her keep her head above water, too.

Naomi, do you want me to see if anyone knows a good grief/PTSD therapist for Grace?

[pocketnaomi]

Yes, please. I've been looking for one for her, but there are relatively few people who work with children her age in this area, and the ones I've found so far are all very much booked up.