I'm Amanda's little sister Danielle, and I think I should know pretty well that she would want people to go on with their lives, but just as long as y'all don't forget her. She was always a bit of a drama queen, so she would have loved all the attention she is getting, but she would also want things to continue, because if you stop living, then the jack@$$ that did this to her wins. Keep goin everyone.
hey jess, i know what you mean...i feel guilty even when i do fun stuff to distract myself (like watching TONS of jdrama in the past few days) because it seems wrong to enjoy myself at a time like this. but i get to thinking about it, and it's kind of a way to keep going, you know? we shouldn't beat ourselves up over living life. what happened to amanda has caused me to feel two things: that nothing has meaning anymore, and that EVERYTHING has meaning. it's up to us to choose what we want to think, and i think it's much more pleasant (and hopeful) to choose the more positive of two. ...just a thought ^^; i hope you don't mind me rambling like this. this whole thing has hit me pretty hard too. i'm still dealing with it.
p.s. i talked with your parents today and i'm going to pick you up from the airport when you come back from japan. plus i might stay over and we can goof off and catch up.
yay! i heard from my parents this morning when they called :) i can't wait to see you again! it'll be so nice being greeted by a friendly face when i come home.
i really want to spend time with friends once i get back because... it's never been more evident how important it is to never take such things for granted.
and yeah. i'm pulling through. i feel like i'm recovering a little too fast, but it would seem weird to force myself into a depression. so, anyway. i can't wait to see you and everyone else again!
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~Christina Danielle Fleetwood
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i know what you mean...i feel guilty even when i do fun stuff to distract myself (like watching TONS of jdrama in the past few days) because it seems wrong to enjoy myself at a time like this. but i get to thinking about it, and it's kind of a way to keep going, you know? we shouldn't beat ourselves up over living life. what happened to amanda has caused me to feel two things: that nothing has meaning anymore, and that EVERYTHING has meaning. it's up to us to choose what we want to think, and i think it's much more pleasant (and hopeful) to choose the more positive of two.
...just a thought ^^; i hope you don't mind me rambling like this. this whole thing has hit me pretty hard too. i'm still dealing with it.
p.s. i talked with your parents today and i'm going to pick you up from the airport when you come back from japan. plus i might stay over and we can goof off and catch up.
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i really want to spend time with friends once i get back because... it's never been more evident how important it is to never take such things for granted.
and yeah. i'm pulling through. i feel like i'm recovering a little too fast, but it would seem weird to force myself into a depression. so, anyway. i can't wait to see you and everyone else again!
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