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[pococurante]

Why is it that I constantly want to help people feel better and cope with me having cancer?

Because I care deeply about the people around me, I'd say.

I love those who support me. :3

Comments

[sparklemagpie]

I think when you're sick and you're suffering, the hardest part can come from watching other people react to you and what you are going through. Their level of upset-ness makes your level of upset-ness ratchet up too.

Caring for them is caring for yourself by extension. <3

[nabradia]

<3 <3 <3 You're a ridiculously sweet person. *hugs* =3

[hiriko]

You're so sweet and kind! <3<3<3 ILU :D

[greenninjagorf]

I looooves you, Kali! You are one of the kindest, most upbeat people I've ever met. <3

[connie_chung]

I agree with lady_zip.

But at the same time I wonder why and how you act so strong. Compared to my ridiculous breakdowns, you act so calm. And I worry because I'm afraid that you're hiding any anger and frustration you have. It's good that you want to help others feel better but you have to take care of your feelings first. Scream, yell, cry. Something, anything.

I know I'm being a broken record but I worry so goddamn much. I've been worrying so much since you first told us you were sick (well, I've always worried but it sky rocketed when you started to get sick). And I know you don't want me to worry but I care and love you. I want you to get better. I want you to be happy.

You're so strong. I wish I knew how to help make things easier for you. ugh... I love you.

[pococurante]

I am angry, but actually I'm mostly angry about people who have abandoned me, which seems selfish in a way, because I can't force anyone to want to be my friend or care about me just because I have a disease, although I can legitimately get pissed over Efe lolololol coz that was immature and silly. And of course I just get angry that this is all happening to me, but not as often as you'd think. I need to really let it out more.

I love you too honey.

[connie_chung]

Trust me, I still get angry over the people from my past. How they left and deserted me when I was going through a rough period. But at the same time, I think about how badly I needed help, they wouldn't have done me much good. They were too self-centered and overall assholes.

Anyone who doesn't want want to be in your life (like this Efe person) is a moron. They aren't worth your time and attention. You're an amazingly beautiful and extraordinary person.