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"All words and music by Hanh Le."
That looks really good, doesn't it.
Do you? Do you really? I find it really strange when people confess to their longing to be Asian. What ideal image are you harboring in your mind? How interesting you would find yourself, were you Asian? How exotic? How beautiful?
Don't even fucking get me started.
I'm too white to be Asian, to Asian to be white, and most days I manage to distract myself enough to be okay with it. But on others.. And this is more than what I slowly came to realize all the way up until 8th grade - that I was viewed as different in this white town, no matter fucking what. It's more than that. It's now surfaced as an inability to group myself with even those in the same boat as me - whitewashed Asians holding onto whatever scrap of cultural background they have left, which is essentially what I am. How well adjusted they must be though, how fucking beautiful. Interesting and offbeat and quirky, but not so much that they render themselves completely unrelateable to the rest of the world.
It makes me fucking sick with myself, but I'm sure that's not what you want to hear. Let me try again:
Oh, you want to be Asian? Come on over, you'll fit right in.
-Hanh
That looks really good, doesn't it.
Do you? Do you really? I find it really strange when people confess to their longing to be Asian. What ideal image are you harboring in your mind? How interesting you would find yourself, were you Asian? How exotic? How beautiful?
Don't even fucking get me started.
I'm too white to be Asian, to Asian to be white, and most days I manage to distract myself enough to be okay with it. But on others.. And this is more than what I slowly came to realize all the way up until 8th grade - that I was viewed as different in this white town, no matter fucking what. It's more than that. It's now surfaced as an inability to group myself with even those in the same boat as me - whitewashed Asians holding onto whatever scrap of cultural background they have left, which is essentially what I am. How well adjusted they must be though, how fucking beautiful. Interesting and offbeat and quirky, but not so much that they render themselves completely unrelateable to the rest of the world.
It makes me fucking sick with myself, but I'm sure that's not what you want to hear. Let me try again:
Oh, you want to be Asian? Come on over, you'll fit right in.
-Hanh