To be loved. To want to be loved. To need to be loved . To love love someone who doesn't love you. To have been loved. to have wanted to be loved. To have had a need to be loved. To live this life we lead.

I feel like crap over this person who shouldn't have any hold over me anymore it is really dumb to think after all this time I can still be affected by something so insignificant. I should just let sleeping dogs lie but it hurts. Which makes me sick I pride myself on not letting people get to me but  this being has some strange pull like reading a ( Read more... )

Her kiss will consume me forever 
in that moment
Her kiss wil change my view of life 
Her kiss will make me see 
the blue sky of heaven 
Her soft lips 
pressed against mine
Ours 
is a love that will 
last forever
Romance will take new meanings
In that moment 
our souls 
will unite in ecstasy
Yes,
 her kiss will change
my soul

I just took a look at some old lj entries and there is alot I have forgotten but was obviously really important to me. In some of the journal entries I poured my heart and soul into. Theres poems and pictures and words that mean things. I have changed so much . I read one that  makes me want to cry cuz it hurts to llook at it . To see what I was ( Read more... )

My summer has gotten a kick in the pants first day of summer i went back to school and i was so bummed becuase i didnt get to take my final exam but i went to try and see when i could take it and they said next week tuesday. I just gave up and went on my buissnes i will be coming home today after 4 marvolus days in jacksonville florida. I want to ( Read more... )

I think there is something I am missing or rather someone. There is always someone who obviously likes someone and never says it to them but tells all her friends have to suffer listening but all his details. Can someone fill me in I promise I will keep it on the down low. I just want to be wanted right now . She doesn't have to be a knock out . ( Read more... )

It has been a while since I have written and today I feel moved to share just for old times sake. In my life currently I have an obsession other people call her rudy. Rudy and I are flirting back and forth at first I wanted to form a relationship but I have just realized this is exactly what I want . A nice casual relationship where i can pratice ( Read more... )

I am so offeneded as a chrisitian by as a human being lmaof

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I feel like there is something i should be solving . Some life i should be living .Like there is something missing . So I am on a search for it and it never shows up . At first I thought all i needed was a woman and sunndely everything would be perfect but I realized it would'nt solve anything it would just give me something to obsses about so i ( Read more... )

nothing important to inform you on . I am looking foward to chritmas. I dont no why its always a serious let down . So i post that day or atleast the day after with the tormet this year brings.