Mother's Day Crankiness
I was kind of ambushed by feelings yesterday night on the bus. Even though it was Mother's Day I didn't really think I'd have issues because I live somewhere where that's not a thing, and it was never a big thing in Chez Knaz growing up. But when I talked to my Dad and he told me about taking Lynn and her kids out to brunch I was filled with a sad rage.
She didn't have his kids! What the fuck is this crap!? How about taking a moment to remember the woman who WAS the mother of his children?
I *hate* that my Dad has just gone off to play house with these three people while kicking Gabe and I to the curb, emotionally. I get it, you love being in a family, newsflash: SO DID I. They're all sparkly and shiny and happy because nothing bad has ever happened to them, I can see where that's attractive. SO SORRY THAT MY MOTHER DYING HAS INCONVENIENCED YOU.
I didn't say these things, I just cried on the bus after hanging up the phone, always so fun to look unhinged in public.
Sometimes though, I really want to say everything I am really think and just like, nuclear blast the bridge, because I've tried to be gentle and my Dad just doesn't give a fuck about how anyone feels except himself and Lynn.
I feel so stupid having this jungian crisis at the advanced age of 28, but there you go. Parents are human, 99% of all humans fucking SUCK, ergo, it's more than likely your parents suck.
She didn't have his kids! What the fuck is this crap!? How about taking a moment to remember the woman who WAS the mother of his children?
I *hate* that my Dad has just gone off to play house with these three people while kicking Gabe and I to the curb, emotionally. I get it, you love being in a family, newsflash: SO DID I. They're all sparkly and shiny and happy because nothing bad has ever happened to them, I can see where that's attractive. SO SORRY THAT MY MOTHER DYING HAS INCONVENIENCED YOU.
I didn't say these things, I just cried on the bus after hanging up the phone, always so fun to look unhinged in public.
Sometimes though, I really want to say everything I am really think and just like, nuclear blast the bridge, because I've tried to be gentle and my Dad just doesn't give a fuck about how anyone feels except himself and Lynn.
I feel so stupid having this jungian crisis at the advanced age of 28, but there you go. Parents are human, 99% of all humans fucking SUCK, ergo, it's more than likely your parents suck.