I want to appologize ahead of time (or if I have already talked to you, I want to appologize again) for being short or quiet. This has changed me a lot. I know I should seem thankful that I still even have a house to come home to, because I really am, but things are different. I don't want your sympathy, I don't want your apathy, I just need a ( Read more... )

Well, that was one hell of a birthday ( Read more... )

yea, I may have copped the name, but the poem is for real. I wroth this, inspired by Marilyn Manson's "Great Big White World"... the poem needs some work, it is still in the editing stages ( Read more... )

Ok, PARTY IS POSTPONED!!! Huricane is coming...

~*~PARTY!!~*~
MY HOUSE
SATURDAY, SEPT 3
5:00

 Hello there people, I have had the best night EVER.. Colt came and picked me up and we went back to his house and watched the best DVD EVER made.  Can you guess what it was?!?  MARILYN MANSON!!!!!!!  No, I still say I am not obsessed.. just a little over happy when it comes to him... *cough cough*  Colt gave me the DVD and the Mechanical Animal CD ( Read more... )

Ok, this may sound a little pathetic... ok, maybe a lot pathetic... I have only had one date to a dance (that was in 10th grade). I came close to having a date to prom this past year, but the guy that said he would go with me told me he would pay for everything - shoes, new dress, nails, hair, make-up, new purse, dinner, hotel, limo - and then a ( Read more... )

Today was a so-so type of day.. Justin brought brownies today in english... they were sooooo good!! lol. I still haven't gotten a hold of Kristy yet, I can't say I didn't try to call her, or get a hold of ( Read more... )

So next week on monday is my birthday.. Today is Kristy's b-day.. I called her, but she wasn't home, I will try to call later again. I went to Alex's house yesterday, that was fun. It mad eme smile for real for the first time in a while. I am doing a project on suicide and genocide and homicide. Fun, huh? lol, well I have to go and do more research ( Read more... )

Has anyone ever felt like they were on a tight-rope? Before now, I used to be happy. Nothing was EVER wrong with me, nothing could hurt me, I was invisable.. no evil could touch me, no darkness infested my cranium. My world was so perfect, I walked with not a single slip on this great tight-rope, thousands of feet in the air. Now, it just seems I ( Read more... )

Wow, I didn't get to bed until 4 this morning, then my mom came in my room at like 6:30 and woke me up to go to my grandpa's house. Turns out that going there will all pay off in lke 6 months. My mother told me osme information that I am not supposed to know yet and I think it's time for me to suck it up and start going there more often ( Read more... )