So its been a few days an d a lot has happened in that time. Of course i still havent heard from dustin smith but that is ok,because the other dustin and i are going out now and thats just what i needed. he is sweet i still dont know a whole lot about him but oh well. He is into his church and he likes kids so thats good because i have a six year ( Read more... )

So i was an emotional girl today! I had to be in the gym today for 2 hours while the underclassmen took tests and saw dustin from accross the gym and just started balling! i couldnt help it! then i went to class was ok then then i balled all theough lunch then all through pe and a lil bit after i got home!! i just cant get over how dissapointed i ( Read more... )

so today i see Dustin in the halls and i dont say hi cuz why should i? Well he didnt see me and i knjow it shouldnt make me mad but why doesnt he look out for me in the hall at least to say hi? i dunno! so anyway this was between first and second hour and during second hour i am soo pissy and am mean to this other kid whos name is also Dustin(weird ( Read more... )

You know its hard to actually feel your feelings when everyone around you needs you to be strong! Shayni is trying hard to be happy and helpful but its hard for me to let her in on anything because i dont want to make her anymore sad. Then there is Ashley and i want to just be able to be like hey im sad today but im afraid of what that kind of ( Read more... )

Well it seems that i am doing well to most but really i am just torn inside. I am stressing about things that are so far in the future that it shouldnt bother me, like for graduation when my mom and step dad come out, i dont want to ever see him again but i am going to have to and im afraid of what he will say or do to disrepect my dad and my ( Read more... )