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so not much has gone on since my last post. doug has left me alone now that he thinks he has proof that i'm an unfit mother because i won't let him change his mind about visiting whenever he wants. but it's ok for him not to pay child support or at least provide a pack of diapers. but this post isn't about doug or even liam, it's about me and how beautifully i continue to screw my future up.
almost 4 years ago, i bought a car that i'd wanted for years and years. 3 1/2 years ago, the timing belt broke and blew the engine. no warranty, no insurance would cover it...i had to take out another loan so i could get another car. on top of paying for the broken car. granted, most people spend $315 a month on just one car payment, but when you're my age and not making beans, it can break you to miss a payment.
well, i've missed 3. i haven't been able to pay my car payments since liam was born, because i had no job and the job i did have only paid one month of bills and didn't allow for saving. i literally had $2 after i paid my bills each month. i don't know how i put gas in my car. and now i have just enough money to put one tank of gas in my car, buy two boxes of diapers, pay my cell phone bill and my car insurance, and put one dollar in the offering plate at church. and my loan company can't give me any more time. i'm screwed. and how can i teach liam to budget and be smart with his money when my credit is in the toilet?
i got my whine out. sorry if you wasted time reading this. here's a picture of liam to make it worthwhile.
