i realized today that through a combination of many things, there's not that much left for me in stratford. my grandpa asked if i wanted to go to college out in indiana and live with them, so i've been giving that some thought. i just don't know what to do with myself.
for the past week or so i've felt really weird. like something should be happening, anything, but nothing is. and i'm left with this weird, blank feeling. i hate it.