[Fanfiction] Because you had promised me
Title: Because you had promised me
Pairing: yewook(main), ninja!kyumin, ninja!eunhae, ninja!kangteuk, ninja!sihanchul
Author: polari_s
Genre: m-preg, angst (i needed to write one pure angst *evil laugh*)
Rating: PG-13
Warning: charather dead! *had cried writing*
Summary: Their treasury child would always remember his father throught his smile, his laugh, his way to talk and even in being fail.
A/N: ok, can be a little odd, but while i was rereading a kyumin smut so so sexy, i stopped to watch the movie that was passing in TV, it was terabthia. it is a really sad movie with a really sad ending, from there came a part of this fic. If you don't like of sad things, don't read it, because nothing had last from the smut that i reread before.
mi_nnie, you are not allowed to read it :F and if you did tell to lee_jinki that i had told you ):
"Yesung ah~~" the young man whispered on the older's ear lying beside him. "Waaake up."
"I want to sleep Wook." Yesung muttered without opening his eyes nor moving.
"But hyung, I have to tell you something." Wook said embracing the older with a arm. "You must be the first one to know."
"Say it, I don't need to be with open eyes to hear your sweet voice." he said smiling.
"Hyung, first, I love you." Wook said stealing a kiss from his lips. "and second. It is a thing that will change our life, everyone's life actually, will change everything and I don't want to remember that you weren't looking at me as I say it to you."
"Ok then Wook. I also love you." Yesung said opening his eyes slowly and putting a hand in Ryeowook's hips pulling him closer, his gaze in the younger's eyes covered by his glasses. Ryeowook was the most important thing in the world for Yesung, ever since they met in their trainee days. Before that they passed two years as a couple inside Super Junior, Heechul hyung and Sungmin made all to make them together finally finding some result when the two locked Yesung and Ryeowook in the bathroom. They got out of there only in the end of the day when Heechul - that were out all day long - found out that the others had used his private bathroom and for the good of everyone Yesung and Ryeowook got out as a couple. "Now say it."
"Look." Ryeowook said taking off from his pocket a thing that looked like a thermometer and putting it in front of Yesung's eyes. But in the place where Yesung was waiting to see the temperature he saw a little pink positive.
"What is this?" The older asked frowning to the object.
"A pregnancy test." Ryeowook said smiling lightly.
"Who...?"
"Me hyung. You aren't sad are you?" Ryeowook asked worried as Yesung didn't show any expression.
"But we've used condoms." he whispered looking through the younger glasses.
"Not in that day, two months ago, when we got drunk and had sex soon that we got back. You took the condom, but I said no." Ryeowook explained without to look at his boyfriend. "I'm sorry hyung, it is my fault."
"No no no Wook, I'm not angry, it's just that... oh gosh a kid."
"You hate me right?" Wook asked still not eyeing Yesung and with some tears falling through his cheeks.
"No Wook ah. Never ever I'm going to hate you." Yesung said caressing the younger cheeks taking those tears away. "It's my fault too and even like this, this children is a reflect of our love." the older said his hand traveling to Ryeowook's belly. "And that explain your sudden nausies and hungry."
"Thanks Yesung." Ryeowook whispered laughing and embracing the older.
"But now you have to be more careful. It is about our baby safe that we are talking right here." the older said pulling the other tighter.
"And if I don't you will protect me, right?" Ryeowook asked with a smile pushing Yesung to gaze his face.
"I will always protect you." Then they started a slow and passionate kiss, neither of them wanting to go out of other's embrace.
At night.
In the couch were - from right to left - Siwon, Heechul and Hangeng, the middle one being pampered, then Kyuhyun playing his precious Starcraft even with Sungmin in his lap and Kibum, fighting for Donghae's attention, who was playing with Eunhyuk, both just stopping fooling around when the leader Teuk told them to stop and to sit in the ground together with Kangin, by his side, and Shindong also there. Yesung and Ryeowook were the center of attention (or most of as Kyuhyun continued to play Starcraft), the two were standing in front of the rest of the group, hands together.
"Well, as you all know, Yesung and me are together for a long time and... wealreadyhadsex." Ryeowook said the last phrase too fast making his cheeks burn.
"Of course we know that!" Heechul exclaimed furious. "Is just this?"
"No hyung." Yesung said, his mouth getting dry of nervousness. "It is that we forgot about condoms one night and..."
"What!!???" Teuk screamed from the floor. "Does this mean that our eternal magnae is pregnant!?"
"Yes hyung. See it." Ryeowook said shyly giving the pregnancy test for his hyung.
"Your freeks, how could you forget about that?" Heechul said rising and looking especially to Yesung, but after turning to Ryeowook smiling. "But congratulations for the baby after all."
Hengeng and Siwon soon followed Heechul, who had left to his room, and the screams of Heechul telling them both to not forget about condoms filled their dorm.
"So... Does it mean..." Kyuhyun was the one talking finally leaving his Starcraft by his side. "That we can really get pregnant?"
"What do you mean?" Teuk asked worried.
Kyuhyun then whispered something to Sungmin that raised up and was with a shocked expression.
"What do you mean with 'I think that one time we forgot about condoms?" Sungmin screamed looking terrified. "Am I also pregnant?"
"Minnie, I'm sorry..."
"It's better to be a girl, if don't I'm gonna kill you." Sungmin threatened sitting by his side immediately putting his hands in his belly.
"Ok, so now..." Teuk started to talk rising and looking to the both couple. "You" he pointed to Sungmin. "You need to do a pregnancy test just to make sure. And you." Teuk said turning to Ryeowook and smiling. "Congratulations for both. It will be a beautiful child."
"And ours Teuk?" Sungmin asked sadly to his hyung.
"Of course that will also be." Teuk said then leaving the room followed by Kangin. Shindong, Kibum, Donghae and Eunhyuk left the room after congratulating the two couples leaving them alone.
Ryeowook and Sungmin were talking about everything with kid in the middle as Kyuhyun, by Sungmin's side was just laughing. By the other side, Yesung was there watching all that Ryeowook was doing. He was his most precious thing in the earth and he didn't want to lose any single thing of Ryeowook's pregnancy.
It passed more three months and Ryeowook, also as Sungmin, was with a pregnant belly. Due to his and Sungmin's condition Super Junior was in "vacations", but it didn't change the fact that Sungmin was always behind Ryeowook to know everything he was passing through to know if was everything ok about their pregnacy. All the three months after they found out Ryeowook and Sungmin were pregnant followed by only three etaps by day, to Ryeowook, wich they were: morning, be wake up by Yesung with a brackfast in his bed, all the days were like this and Ryeowook always would thing in, after having this baby, having another one; after lunch, Ryeowook would be pempered by everyone all day long sharing this moment with Sungmin, who loved this, since in going to shopping - wich Sungmin, Heechul and Teuk loved to do - to being filled with food and caress by the others members; and finally the night were Yesung was waiting for him, in all day long Yesung would be just observing how Ryeowook would be treate to at night he stay with him under his arms, to sing lovely melodies to make his boyfriend (and even their baby) to sleep, to wake up and help Ryeowook when he felt sick and wanted to puke, to atend to every wish of him and most of all, to show to Ryeowook that he didn't need to feel sorry for, that even that was hard times for Ryeowook, it would be replace by wonderful as their kid was born.
And that child already had a name since the third month when Ryeowook got back from his and Sungmin's doctor.
"It's a boy." Ryeowook said almost jumping to the members. "And as I would to chose the name if he was a boy I decided to put Kim Jongwoon II."
"Poor children." Heechul whispered under the sudden happy conversation towards Ryeowook.
"And mine is a girl!" Sungmin said with puffy eyes. "Good luck to Kyuhyun." he said smiling and then hugging the said man. "I will call her Minjung."
In that night, when were just Ryeowook and Yesung in their room, the older asked lightly making little circes in Ryeowook's pregnant stomach.
"Why did you choose my name?"
Ryeowook smiled and putting his own hand above his boyfriend's he said simply.
"Because you are the most important thing to me as our child and I want to remember without any strenght that you helped me to do him, that you are helping me with everything, that you are his father."
"You are so beautiful and sweet Wook." Yesung whispered, his head in Ryeowook's neck. "I keep thinking if I deserve you every single night after you sleep quietly in my arms."
"I think like that too when I wake up in the middle of the night and see you sleeping by my side." Ryeowook said pressing more the older's hand. "Don't ever leave me."
"I never would have the courage. Why would I give up from my dream?" Yesung said looking to Ryeowook's face. "I will always fight back to have you with me."
Ryeowook started to feel little tears forming in his eyes and after the soft lips of Yesung kissing them away.
"Don't cry my dear. It isn't sadness here."
It was the sixth month. Ryeowook stomach was so huge and beatiful that everyone, even Heechul and Kangin, would stop to take a look and caress a little to feel the kicks of the little Jongwoon. The birth of Jongwoon would be in the winter, december 15th of that year. Exactly three months from that day. And as Sungmin found out in the internet that new toys and clothes were in the baby store, Ryeowook and him went there after the lunch.
"Wook, Wook, look that!" Sungmin pointed to a huge brown bear plush in the middle of the store.
"Own how beatiful!" Ryeowook said happily going to the bear and squeezing him. "I think that I probably will lost Jongwoon here, but, I will take it!"
"Let me... Oh my God! They have a giant pink bunny in that side too!!" Sungmin screamed and ran to the pink big bunny in the corner of the shop. "I want for meee!" he said while squeezed the plush.
Ryeowook, laughing, went to the friend and had to take him at force so they could see more things for Jongwoon and Minjung, but before promising that the bunny would go together with them. While they were seeing some clothes Ryeowook suddenly felt a weird thing, something more than just a pregnancy nausea, it was like something was pushing his heart and his stomach, all together.
"Wook? Are you alright?" Sungmin asked worried to the expression of Ryeowook.
"No it's..." but then the pain and the weird feeling stopped as soon as it began and Ryeowook felt Jongwoon's kick on his stomach. "I don't know. It passed, but, it was so strange." he explained confused.
"Do you want to come back to the dorm?" Sungmin asked still worried. "We are here for two hours already."
"Yes, I think it's better to come back." Ryeowook said with a smile to take off his hyung's worries.
"So let's pay everything."
They went back to their dorm without anything as they bought so much things that they couldn't take everything by themselves. The dorm was completely empty, anyone was there.
"How strange." Sungmin said soon that they entered. "It is really no one here."
"Hyung, I will take a nap now, alright?" Ryeowook asked trying to hide from Sungmin the pain that he felt again on his heart.
"Ok, I will take a shower. Good nap."
The younger went then to his and Yesung's room and lay in their bed. How he wished that Yesung was there to calm him down, it was a pain so much strange, he knew it wasn't about the baby, but still got him nervous. When the pain got out, once again so soon as began, Ryeowook slept quietly.
"How?" Ryeowook heard from his bed while he opened his eyes lightly. Through the window he saw that was already night and he was feeling so much cold because he wasn't covered.
"How will we tell him?" Ryeowook heard and feeling curious about he took a blanket covering his back and slowly opened the door to find all Super Junior's members there. All of them were with their faces red from crying, but who Ryeowook missed much was Yesung, he wasn't there.
"Tell what to who?" Ryeowook whispered loud enough to everyone look at him. "Where is Yesung?"
"Wook... Its that..." Teuk started to talk but then he stopped letting more tears falling in his cheeks.
"Why Yesung isn't here also crying with you?" Ryeowook asked feeling his mouth dry and his heart start to beat fast.
"Ryeowook, We have to tell you something." Kangin said approaching to him, he was one of them that was with his face less red. "It is hard to everyone, you see, but..." Kangin took a breathe and put a hand in Ryeowook's shoulder who was feeling his legs as jelly, something really bad happened and he knew it. "Yesung got into a car accident, some crazy guy passed through the red signal and crashed in his car and... and he didn't resist to." Kangin was one more time crying, but Ryeowook's situation was worst.
Ryeowook didn't let any tear fall, he didn't have any time for this. All that he could to feel was a terrible pain in him, in every inch of his body as he was dying. He remembered that Kangin took him to the couch so he wouldn't fall in the floor and while he sat the tears started to fall from his eyes and falling in his pregnant stomach. He caressed his Jongwoon inside him a thousand times after squeezed himself in the blanket he was holding on.
"No, no, no." Ryeowook was whispering and then screaming. "You are liar, all of you! Not my Yesung, not my Jongwoon, no no no." he denied over and over again.
"Wook." the sweet voice of Sungmin, along with his sobs, came to his ears. "You have to control yourself, for the good of the little Jongwoon."
"But hyung, I want my Yesung here!" Ryeowook screamed. "I want him as much how as I want the little one!"
"We know, we know." Hangeng said taking Ryeowook into his arms trying to calm down him.
"You don't, you... don't." Ryeowook was whispering in the middle of his sobs accepting Hangeng's embrace.
Everyone stayed there, it didn't pass a minute without Ryeowook being heard crying together with someone of the group. It was such a big lost, it was as if their family was being ripped a part, mostly the new family that Yesung and Ryeowook were building. Ryeowook kept crying and talking some strange words until a doctor went in their dorm. Ryeowook didn't notice anything, just felt the emptiness of Hangeng's arms and then some cold thing in his chest and stomach, he almost screamed that someone was touching in his and Yesung's precious baby, it was the time when he noticed that the doctor was examining him.
The eternal maknae felt something in his arm, but didn't care, he was feeling so much pain, his chest hurt so much that all that he could do in that time was cry.
"I want to see him." Ryeowook whispered when he felt his head heavy. "I need him." then a last sob until the medicine did its effect and left the boy asleep.
"...Almost lost the kid." Ryeowook could hear when he woke up, it even looked that someone had turned some radio on.
"It's everything ok now?" asked a worried voice that Ryeowook couldn't say of who it was.
"A little, he need to rest more, that news was a huge shock for him."
"Thanks then."
And Ryeowook fell asleep again when he felt something cold in his arm. "Jongwoon." he said before "turning off" again.
Ryeowook woke up and the first thing that he saw was a tank in his bed-side table with Ddangkkoma inside then soon he closed his eyes again. The young man caressed his stomach and felt good and he felt some kicks from Jongwoon, but he was also feeling that he would puke.
"Yesung, I'm going to puke." he said without open his eyes.
He felt a hand in his shoulder, not a small hand, a normal one, that pulled him up slowly.
"Come on Wook." Kangin said leading him to the bathroom.
In the oh so white bathroom, Kangin lightly put Ryeowook in front of the toilet as the pregnant one put all of himself out. Again Ryeowook was feeling some pain in his heart, he knew why Kangin hyung was there with him, he knew why it wasn't Yesung, he knew all that since he woke up and didn't feel his lover's arm around him. Since he felt Jongwoon kicking in his stomach frantically. Both knew, but none of them wanted to believe on it.
In the other day after Yesung's dead, the morning was more shining than ever. Ryeowook woke up with Kangin's whispers telling him that Yesung would be veiled and, as Ryeowook did until he slept, he cried more in his hyung's arm.
He didn't remember how he got in the funeral. All that he could remember from that day was that the funeral was full. There was all Yesung's family, Yesung's mother's sobs were so loud that could touch everyone's heart. All the staff, SM's employers and singers were there. And a huge group of E.L.Fs were in the entry, their sobs and cries filling the air. But none of them felt what Ryeowook felt soon that his eyes gazed Yesung's death body. He felt that he couldn't breathe anymore as all the air had left the room. Some pairs of hands were taking him while he asked for Yesung, and when he stayed in front of the dead body the first thing that he did, after crying more, was to kiss those lips under the thin cloth that covered him. Ryeowook's hand traveled through the older's shoulder as his head was in his chest, crying and sobbing more. None of the people there could to do something to Ryeowook, just to call an ambulance when Ryeowook fainted in the dead body begging for Yesung to come back.
Of course that it was a dream. How could Ryeowook be without Jongwoon in his belly and with Yesung in front of him, smiling to him? Ryeowook ran faster than he could until the dead man, but the younger didn't move and then he noticed he was in a florest. Ryewook fell in the dark place and cried more.
"You told me that you wouldn't leave!" Ryeowook screamed. "You told me that you would always protect me! But now you left me and I need you! I need you to hold me in your arms, I need you to help me when I wake up to puke because of OUR Jongwoon! I want that Jongwoon know why he has his father's name! I want you here with me! I need you so much!" then the white image of Yesung was in his front and Ryeowook felt that he wasn't breathing anymore. "Stay here forever." he begged.
Yesung slowly went to Ryeowook and kissed his forehead. "I will always be here when you sleep. I'm always by your side."
Then Ryeowook woke up and puked in the floor after seeing Teuk's worried eyes, who was sitting in Yesung's bed, gazing him 'till he slept again.
*flashback*
"Wook?" called the sweet voice of Yesung. "I brought your breakfast."
Ryeowook moaned something and then sat in the bed to take the breakfast in his lap. Yesung kissed lightly Ryeowook's lips and sat beside him. With the older's arm around his shoulder, Ryeowook started to eat feeling suddenly hungry.
"Today I will buy some toys and clothes to Jongwoon with Sungmin." the younger said with some bread in his mouth looking at the sad eyes of Yesung. "What did happen?"
"I wanted to stay with you, just at least today, just here with you." Yesung whispered hugging Ryeowook tighter.
"When Jongwoon is born we'll could stay together, just us three." the younger said also hugging Yesung.
"But I want today." Yesung whispered without moving.
"What did happen?" Ryeowook asked again pushing Yesung to see his face.
"Nothing. I'm just missing you as the others try to take your attention." the older's eyes were full of tears as he caressed Ryeowook's face.
"You have all my attention your fool." Ryeowook whispered kissing the older's lips. "You had helped me more than they had. It's you who I love the most."
"Wook... I... I love you more than anything." Yesung said pulling Ryeowook's neck to kiss him. "I wouldn't stand to lose you."
"Neither I Yesung." Ryeowook said hugging him and putting his face in Yesung's shoulder.
Yesung put the tray with the brackfast on the floor and started a slow and passionate kiss with the younger. Their hand met each other and Yesung brought them to Ryeowook's face caressing his cheek while pushed him until they were lying in the bed.
"Thanks for all Yesung."
"It's me who has to thanks." Yesung whispered, his nose touching in Ryeowook's. "You brought me the most wonderful days and a wonderful child. You are with him in your belly, taking care of our child. Now you have two Jongwoon to care about." Yesung smiled.
"Will I be able to take care?"
"If you want just one." Yesung said pushing Ryeowook away giving his back to him.
"Of course not!" Ryeowook said hugging Yesung's back. "All I want it's to have more and more of you."
Yesung then turned in Ryeowook's arm smiling lightly and hugging him again. The younger felt Jongwoon and happy took Yesung's hand and put under his shirt showing the baby's frantic kicks, but Yesung's cold hand on Ryeowook's skin made the younger shiver and get a little worried.
"You are cold." Ryeowook said frowning traveling his hand along Yesung's cold arm.
"Don't get worried." Yesung said rising Ryeowook's shirt, kissing his big belly and then going back to Ryeowook's lips. "I love you both so much."
"So do we." the younger said between their kiss.
*/flashback*
It passed three months since Yesung had died and Ryeowook was in the hospital together with his parents and all the others 13 members of Super Junior. He went alone to a special room where he was going to have the baby and everything passed very quickly, soon the cries and sobs of Jongwoon could've been already heard. When the doctor showed to Ryeowook the little Jongwoon, Ryeowook cried so much, feeling relieved, happiness and pain all at the same time. The baby was so much look like with Yesung that he felt as he was gazing to some old picture of his lover. Ryeowook kissed the forehead of the baby before that the doctor took him to wash him. More tears fell from his eyes and then he could swear that he felt a hand squeeze his shoulder and when he looked there was Yesung. He didn't look like he had been in a car accident, it was just like the last memory of him that kept going to Ryeowook's mind every night before he sleeps.
The image, ghost, vision, or something of Yesung went close to Ryeowook's head and that one could clearly hear the older's whisper to him.
"I told you that I'm always by your side. I love you both." Then the image was gone and Ryeowook was sobbing even more. He knew it, he knew that Yesung was always by his side. How could he think that he wasn't?
The little boy was running between some flowers together with another little girl with the same age as him. The boy was now 5 years, also as the girl and as they were running in a public park, their parents and "uncles" were there watching them.
"Daaaaaad!" The young boy screamed suddenly running to the table where were Ryeowook, Kyuhyun and Kangin. "I got hurt with a rose!"
"Jongwoon, how could you?" Ryeowook asked trying to be a little angry, but failing holding the young boy's hand and cleaning it and kissing.
"He is so weak." the little girl called Minjung said then turning to Kyuhyun with a rose in her hand and whispering. "Dad, give it to the dad Sungmin."
"Oh thanks Min. It is beautiful." Kyuhyun said squeezing her cheek and then looking to Sungmin who were talking happy a little far away under a tree with Teuk who was with a big pregnant stomach, his and Kangin's daughter would be born soon.
"I'm not weak, am I dad?" Jongwoon said almost crying to Ryeowook.
"Of course not Jongwoon." Ryeowook said taking the young boy on his lap. "You are so much strong!"
"I will play with Donghae and Eunhyuk uncles!" Minjung said running to the lake where everyone could see Donghae showing to his and Eunhyuk's little son, Chinmae, some fishes, Eunhyuk was worried without taking off his gaze from Donghae and his little treasure who was just 2 years old.
Ryeowook's eyes then went to some trees more distanced from them and over there he could to see someone, it was a man for sure, and his face was so much look like the one in his lap that Ryeowook felt his heart get warm. And when he just blinked the man wasn't there anymore, but he knew, Yesung was there. Yesung was always there and Ryeowook would believe in that until the end of the times, because he knew that Yesung would never break his promise.
He would never leave Ryeowook and Jongwoon. Even if the fate, or something bigger, wanted him away.
END
comments are love~~
Pairing: yewook(main), ninja!kyumin, ninja!eunhae, ninja!kangteuk, ninja!sihanchul
Author: polari_s
Genre: m-preg, angst (i needed to write one pure angst *evil laugh*)
Rating: PG-13
Warning: charather dead! *had cried writing*
Summary: Their treasury child would always remember his father throught his smile, his laugh, his way to talk and even in being fail.
A/N: ok, can be a little odd, but while i was rereading a kyumin smut so so sexy, i stopped to watch the movie that was passing in TV, it was terabthia. it is a really sad movie with a really sad ending, from there came a part of this fic. If you don't like of sad things, don't read it, because nothing had last from the smut that i reread before.
mi_nnie, you are not allowed to read it :F and if you did tell to lee_jinki that i had told you ):
"Yesung ah~~" the young man whispered on the older's ear lying beside him. "Waaake up."
"I want to sleep Wook." Yesung muttered without opening his eyes nor moving.
"But hyung, I have to tell you something." Wook said embracing the older with a arm. "You must be the first one to know."
"Say it, I don't need to be with open eyes to hear your sweet voice." he said smiling.
"Hyung, first, I love you." Wook said stealing a kiss from his lips. "and second. It is a thing that will change our life, everyone's life actually, will change everything and I don't want to remember that you weren't looking at me as I say it to you."
"Ok then Wook. I also love you." Yesung said opening his eyes slowly and putting a hand in Ryeowook's hips pulling him closer, his gaze in the younger's eyes covered by his glasses. Ryeowook was the most important thing in the world for Yesung, ever since they met in their trainee days. Before that they passed two years as a couple inside Super Junior, Heechul hyung and Sungmin made all to make them together finally finding some result when the two locked Yesung and Ryeowook in the bathroom. They got out of there only in the end of the day when Heechul - that were out all day long - found out that the others had used his private bathroom and for the good of everyone Yesung and Ryeowook got out as a couple. "Now say it."
"Look." Ryeowook said taking off from his pocket a thing that looked like a thermometer and putting it in front of Yesung's eyes. But in the place where Yesung was waiting to see the temperature he saw a little pink positive.
"What is this?" The older asked frowning to the object.
"A pregnancy test." Ryeowook said smiling lightly.
"Who...?"
"Me hyung. You aren't sad are you?" Ryeowook asked worried as Yesung didn't show any expression.
"But we've used condoms." he whispered looking through the younger glasses.
"Not in that day, two months ago, when we got drunk and had sex soon that we got back. You took the condom, but I said no." Ryeowook explained without to look at his boyfriend. "I'm sorry hyung, it is my fault."
"No no no Wook, I'm not angry, it's just that... oh gosh a kid."
"You hate me right?" Wook asked still not eyeing Yesung and with some tears falling through his cheeks.
"No Wook ah. Never ever I'm going to hate you." Yesung said caressing the younger cheeks taking those tears away. "It's my fault too and even like this, this children is a reflect of our love." the older said his hand traveling to Ryeowook's belly. "And that explain your sudden nausies and hungry."
"Thanks Yesung." Ryeowook whispered laughing and embracing the older.
"But now you have to be more careful. It is about our baby safe that we are talking right here." the older said pulling the other tighter.
"And if I don't you will protect me, right?" Ryeowook asked with a smile pushing Yesung to gaze his face.
"I will always protect you." Then they started a slow and passionate kiss, neither of them wanting to go out of other's embrace.
At night.
In the couch were - from right to left - Siwon, Heechul and Hangeng, the middle one being pampered, then Kyuhyun playing his precious Starcraft even with Sungmin in his lap and Kibum, fighting for Donghae's attention, who was playing with Eunhyuk, both just stopping fooling around when the leader Teuk told them to stop and to sit in the ground together with Kangin, by his side, and Shindong also there. Yesung and Ryeowook were the center of attention (or most of as Kyuhyun continued to play Starcraft), the two were standing in front of the rest of the group, hands together.
"Well, as you all know, Yesung and me are together for a long time and... wealreadyhadsex." Ryeowook said the last phrase too fast making his cheeks burn.
"Of course we know that!" Heechul exclaimed furious. "Is just this?"
"No hyung." Yesung said, his mouth getting dry of nervousness. "It is that we forgot about condoms one night and..."
"What!!???" Teuk screamed from the floor. "Does this mean that our eternal magnae is pregnant!?"
"Yes hyung. See it." Ryeowook said shyly giving the pregnancy test for his hyung.
"Your freeks, how could you forget about that?" Heechul said rising and looking especially to Yesung, but after turning to Ryeowook smiling. "But congratulations for the baby after all."
Hengeng and Siwon soon followed Heechul, who had left to his room, and the screams of Heechul telling them both to not forget about condoms filled their dorm.
"So... Does it mean..." Kyuhyun was the one talking finally leaving his Starcraft by his side. "That we can really get pregnant?"
"What do you mean?" Teuk asked worried.
Kyuhyun then whispered something to Sungmin that raised up and was with a shocked expression.
"What do you mean with 'I think that one time we forgot about condoms?" Sungmin screamed looking terrified. "Am I also pregnant?"
"Minnie, I'm sorry..."
"It's better to be a girl, if don't I'm gonna kill you." Sungmin threatened sitting by his side immediately putting his hands in his belly.
"Ok, so now..." Teuk started to talk rising and looking to the both couple. "You" he pointed to Sungmin. "You need to do a pregnancy test just to make sure. And you." Teuk said turning to Ryeowook and smiling. "Congratulations for both. It will be a beautiful child."
"And ours Teuk?" Sungmin asked sadly to his hyung.
"Of course that will also be." Teuk said then leaving the room followed by Kangin. Shindong, Kibum, Donghae and Eunhyuk left the room after congratulating the two couples leaving them alone.
Ryeowook and Sungmin were talking about everything with kid in the middle as Kyuhyun, by Sungmin's side was just laughing. By the other side, Yesung was there watching all that Ryeowook was doing. He was his most precious thing in the earth and he didn't want to lose any single thing of Ryeowook's pregnancy.
It passed more three months and Ryeowook, also as Sungmin, was with a pregnant belly. Due to his and Sungmin's condition Super Junior was in "vacations", but it didn't change the fact that Sungmin was always behind Ryeowook to know everything he was passing through to know if was everything ok about their pregnacy. All the three months after they found out Ryeowook and Sungmin were pregnant followed by only three etaps by day, to Ryeowook, wich they were: morning, be wake up by Yesung with a brackfast in his bed, all the days were like this and Ryeowook always would thing in, after having this baby, having another one; after lunch, Ryeowook would be pempered by everyone all day long sharing this moment with Sungmin, who loved this, since in going to shopping - wich Sungmin, Heechul and Teuk loved to do - to being filled with food and caress by the others members; and finally the night were Yesung was waiting for him, in all day long Yesung would be just observing how Ryeowook would be treate to at night he stay with him under his arms, to sing lovely melodies to make his boyfriend (and even their baby) to sleep, to wake up and help Ryeowook when he felt sick and wanted to puke, to atend to every wish of him and most of all, to show to Ryeowook that he didn't need to feel sorry for, that even that was hard times for Ryeowook, it would be replace by wonderful as their kid was born.
And that child already had a name since the third month when Ryeowook got back from his and Sungmin's doctor.
"It's a boy." Ryeowook said almost jumping to the members. "And as I would to chose the name if he was a boy I decided to put Kim Jongwoon II."
"Poor children." Heechul whispered under the sudden happy conversation towards Ryeowook.
"And mine is a girl!" Sungmin said with puffy eyes. "Good luck to Kyuhyun." he said smiling and then hugging the said man. "I will call her Minjung."
In that night, when were just Ryeowook and Yesung in their room, the older asked lightly making little circes in Ryeowook's pregnant stomach.
"Why did you choose my name?"
Ryeowook smiled and putting his own hand above his boyfriend's he said simply.
"Because you are the most important thing to me as our child and I want to remember without any strenght that you helped me to do him, that you are helping me with everything, that you are his father."
"You are so beautiful and sweet Wook." Yesung whispered, his head in Ryeowook's neck. "I keep thinking if I deserve you every single night after you sleep quietly in my arms."
"I think like that too when I wake up in the middle of the night and see you sleeping by my side." Ryeowook said pressing more the older's hand. "Don't ever leave me."
"I never would have the courage. Why would I give up from my dream?" Yesung said looking to Ryeowook's face. "I will always fight back to have you with me."
Ryeowook started to feel little tears forming in his eyes and after the soft lips of Yesung kissing them away.
"Don't cry my dear. It isn't sadness here."
It was the sixth month. Ryeowook stomach was so huge and beatiful that everyone, even Heechul and Kangin, would stop to take a look and caress a little to feel the kicks of the little Jongwoon. The birth of Jongwoon would be in the winter, december 15th of that year. Exactly three months from that day. And as Sungmin found out in the internet that new toys and clothes were in the baby store, Ryeowook and him went there after the lunch.
"Wook, Wook, look that!" Sungmin pointed to a huge brown bear plush in the middle of the store.
"Own how beatiful!" Ryeowook said happily going to the bear and squeezing him. "I think that I probably will lost Jongwoon here, but, I will take it!"
"Let me... Oh my God! They have a giant pink bunny in that side too!!" Sungmin screamed and ran to the pink big bunny in the corner of the shop. "I want for meee!" he said while squeezed the plush.
Ryeowook, laughing, went to the friend and had to take him at force so they could see more things for Jongwoon and Minjung, but before promising that the bunny would go together with them. While they were seeing some clothes Ryeowook suddenly felt a weird thing, something more than just a pregnancy nausea, it was like something was pushing his heart and his stomach, all together.
"Wook? Are you alright?" Sungmin asked worried to the expression of Ryeowook.
"No it's..." but then the pain and the weird feeling stopped as soon as it began and Ryeowook felt Jongwoon's kick on his stomach. "I don't know. It passed, but, it was so strange." he explained confused.
"Do you want to come back to the dorm?" Sungmin asked still worried. "We are here for two hours already."
"Yes, I think it's better to come back." Ryeowook said with a smile to take off his hyung's worries.
"So let's pay everything."
They went back to their dorm without anything as they bought so much things that they couldn't take everything by themselves. The dorm was completely empty, anyone was there.
"How strange." Sungmin said soon that they entered. "It is really no one here."
"Hyung, I will take a nap now, alright?" Ryeowook asked trying to hide from Sungmin the pain that he felt again on his heart.
"Ok, I will take a shower. Good nap."
The younger went then to his and Yesung's room and lay in their bed. How he wished that Yesung was there to calm him down, it was a pain so much strange, he knew it wasn't about the baby, but still got him nervous. When the pain got out, once again so soon as began, Ryeowook slept quietly.
"How?" Ryeowook heard from his bed while he opened his eyes lightly. Through the window he saw that was already night and he was feeling so much cold because he wasn't covered.
"How will we tell him?" Ryeowook heard and feeling curious about he took a blanket covering his back and slowly opened the door to find all Super Junior's members there. All of them were with their faces red from crying, but who Ryeowook missed much was Yesung, he wasn't there.
"Tell what to who?" Ryeowook whispered loud enough to everyone look at him. "Where is Yesung?"
"Wook... Its that..." Teuk started to talk but then he stopped letting more tears falling in his cheeks.
"Why Yesung isn't here also crying with you?" Ryeowook asked feeling his mouth dry and his heart start to beat fast.
"Ryeowook, We have to tell you something." Kangin said approaching to him, he was one of them that was with his face less red. "It is hard to everyone, you see, but..." Kangin took a breathe and put a hand in Ryeowook's shoulder who was feeling his legs as jelly, something really bad happened and he knew it. "Yesung got into a car accident, some crazy guy passed through the red signal and crashed in his car and... and he didn't resist to." Kangin was one more time crying, but Ryeowook's situation was worst.
Ryeowook didn't let any tear fall, he didn't have any time for this. All that he could to feel was a terrible pain in him, in every inch of his body as he was dying. He remembered that Kangin took him to the couch so he wouldn't fall in the floor and while he sat the tears started to fall from his eyes and falling in his pregnant stomach. He caressed his Jongwoon inside him a thousand times after squeezed himself in the blanket he was holding on.
"No, no, no." Ryeowook was whispering and then screaming. "You are liar, all of you! Not my Yesung, not my Jongwoon, no no no." he denied over and over again.
"Wook." the sweet voice of Sungmin, along with his sobs, came to his ears. "You have to control yourself, for the good of the little Jongwoon."
"But hyung, I want my Yesung here!" Ryeowook screamed. "I want him as much how as I want the little one!"
"We know, we know." Hangeng said taking Ryeowook into his arms trying to calm down him.
"You don't, you... don't." Ryeowook was whispering in the middle of his sobs accepting Hangeng's embrace.
Everyone stayed there, it didn't pass a minute without Ryeowook being heard crying together with someone of the group. It was such a big lost, it was as if their family was being ripped a part, mostly the new family that Yesung and Ryeowook were building. Ryeowook kept crying and talking some strange words until a doctor went in their dorm. Ryeowook didn't notice anything, just felt the emptiness of Hangeng's arms and then some cold thing in his chest and stomach, he almost screamed that someone was touching in his and Yesung's precious baby, it was the time when he noticed that the doctor was examining him.
The eternal maknae felt something in his arm, but didn't care, he was feeling so much pain, his chest hurt so much that all that he could do in that time was cry.
"I want to see him." Ryeowook whispered when he felt his head heavy. "I need him." then a last sob until the medicine did its effect and left the boy asleep.
"...Almost lost the kid." Ryeowook could hear when he woke up, it even looked that someone had turned some radio on.
"It's everything ok now?" asked a worried voice that Ryeowook couldn't say of who it was.
"A little, he need to rest more, that news was a huge shock for him."
"Thanks then."
And Ryeowook fell asleep again when he felt something cold in his arm. "Jongwoon." he said before "turning off" again.
Ryeowook woke up and the first thing that he saw was a tank in his bed-side table with Ddangkkoma inside then soon he closed his eyes again. The young man caressed his stomach and felt good and he felt some kicks from Jongwoon, but he was also feeling that he would puke.
"Yesung, I'm going to puke." he said without open his eyes.
He felt a hand in his shoulder, not a small hand, a normal one, that pulled him up slowly.
"Come on Wook." Kangin said leading him to the bathroom.
In the oh so white bathroom, Kangin lightly put Ryeowook in front of the toilet as the pregnant one put all of himself out. Again Ryeowook was feeling some pain in his heart, he knew why Kangin hyung was there with him, he knew why it wasn't Yesung, he knew all that since he woke up and didn't feel his lover's arm around him. Since he felt Jongwoon kicking in his stomach frantically. Both knew, but none of them wanted to believe on it.
In the other day after Yesung's dead, the morning was more shining than ever. Ryeowook woke up with Kangin's whispers telling him that Yesung would be veiled and, as Ryeowook did until he slept, he cried more in his hyung's arm.
He didn't remember how he got in the funeral. All that he could remember from that day was that the funeral was full. There was all Yesung's family, Yesung's mother's sobs were so loud that could touch everyone's heart. All the staff, SM's employers and singers were there. And a huge group of E.L.Fs were in the entry, their sobs and cries filling the air. But none of them felt what Ryeowook felt soon that his eyes gazed Yesung's death body. He felt that he couldn't breathe anymore as all the air had left the room. Some pairs of hands were taking him while he asked for Yesung, and when he stayed in front of the dead body the first thing that he did, after crying more, was to kiss those lips under the thin cloth that covered him. Ryeowook's hand traveled through the older's shoulder as his head was in his chest, crying and sobbing more. None of the people there could to do something to Ryeowook, just to call an ambulance when Ryeowook fainted in the dead body begging for Yesung to come back.
Of course that it was a dream. How could Ryeowook be without Jongwoon in his belly and with Yesung in front of him, smiling to him? Ryeowook ran faster than he could until the dead man, but the younger didn't move and then he noticed he was in a florest. Ryewook fell in the dark place and cried more.
"You told me that you wouldn't leave!" Ryeowook screamed. "You told me that you would always protect me! But now you left me and I need you! I need you to hold me in your arms, I need you to help me when I wake up to puke because of OUR Jongwoon! I want that Jongwoon know why he has his father's name! I want you here with me! I need you so much!" then the white image of Yesung was in his front and Ryeowook felt that he wasn't breathing anymore. "Stay here forever." he begged.
Yesung slowly went to Ryeowook and kissed his forehead. "I will always be here when you sleep. I'm always by your side."
Then Ryeowook woke up and puked in the floor after seeing Teuk's worried eyes, who was sitting in Yesung's bed, gazing him 'till he slept again.
*flashback*
"Wook?" called the sweet voice of Yesung. "I brought your breakfast."
Ryeowook moaned something and then sat in the bed to take the breakfast in his lap. Yesung kissed lightly Ryeowook's lips and sat beside him. With the older's arm around his shoulder, Ryeowook started to eat feeling suddenly hungry.
"Today I will buy some toys and clothes to Jongwoon with Sungmin." the younger said with some bread in his mouth looking at the sad eyes of Yesung. "What did happen?"
"I wanted to stay with you, just at least today, just here with you." Yesung whispered hugging Ryeowook tighter.
"When Jongwoon is born we'll could stay together, just us three." the younger said also hugging Yesung.
"But I want today." Yesung whispered without moving.
"What did happen?" Ryeowook asked again pushing Yesung to see his face.
"Nothing. I'm just missing you as the others try to take your attention." the older's eyes were full of tears as he caressed Ryeowook's face.
"You have all my attention your fool." Ryeowook whispered kissing the older's lips. "You had helped me more than they had. It's you who I love the most."
"Wook... I... I love you more than anything." Yesung said pulling Ryeowook's neck to kiss him. "I wouldn't stand to lose you."
"Neither I Yesung." Ryeowook said hugging him and putting his face in Yesung's shoulder.
Yesung put the tray with the brackfast on the floor and started a slow and passionate kiss with the younger. Their hand met each other and Yesung brought them to Ryeowook's face caressing his cheek while pushed him until they were lying in the bed.
"Thanks for all Yesung."
"It's me who has to thanks." Yesung whispered, his nose touching in Ryeowook's. "You brought me the most wonderful days and a wonderful child. You are with him in your belly, taking care of our child. Now you have two Jongwoon to care about." Yesung smiled.
"Will I be able to take care?"
"If you want just one." Yesung said pushing Ryeowook away giving his back to him.
"Of course not!" Ryeowook said hugging Yesung's back. "All I want it's to have more and more of you."
Yesung then turned in Ryeowook's arm smiling lightly and hugging him again. The younger felt Jongwoon and happy took Yesung's hand and put under his shirt showing the baby's frantic kicks, but Yesung's cold hand on Ryeowook's skin made the younger shiver and get a little worried.
"You are cold." Ryeowook said frowning traveling his hand along Yesung's cold arm.
"Don't get worried." Yesung said rising Ryeowook's shirt, kissing his big belly and then going back to Ryeowook's lips. "I love you both so much."
"So do we." the younger said between their kiss.
*/flashback*
It passed three months since Yesung had died and Ryeowook was in the hospital together with his parents and all the others 13 members of Super Junior. He went alone to a special room where he was going to have the baby and everything passed very quickly, soon the cries and sobs of Jongwoon could've been already heard. When the doctor showed to Ryeowook the little Jongwoon, Ryeowook cried so much, feeling relieved, happiness and pain all at the same time. The baby was so much look like with Yesung that he felt as he was gazing to some old picture of his lover. Ryeowook kissed the forehead of the baby before that the doctor took him to wash him. More tears fell from his eyes and then he could swear that he felt a hand squeeze his shoulder and when he looked there was Yesung. He didn't look like he had been in a car accident, it was just like the last memory of him that kept going to Ryeowook's mind every night before he sleeps.
The image, ghost, vision, or something of Yesung went close to Ryeowook's head and that one could clearly hear the older's whisper to him.
"I told you that I'm always by your side. I love you both." Then the image was gone and Ryeowook was sobbing even more. He knew it, he knew that Yesung was always by his side. How could he think that he wasn't?
The little boy was running between some flowers together with another little girl with the same age as him. The boy was now 5 years, also as the girl and as they were running in a public park, their parents and "uncles" were there watching them.
"Daaaaaad!" The young boy screamed suddenly running to the table where were Ryeowook, Kyuhyun and Kangin. "I got hurt with a rose!"
"Jongwoon, how could you?" Ryeowook asked trying to be a little angry, but failing holding the young boy's hand and cleaning it and kissing.
"He is so weak." the little girl called Minjung said then turning to Kyuhyun with a rose in her hand and whispering. "Dad, give it to the dad Sungmin."
"Oh thanks Min. It is beautiful." Kyuhyun said squeezing her cheek and then looking to Sungmin who were talking happy a little far away under a tree with Teuk who was with a big pregnant stomach, his and Kangin's daughter would be born soon.
"I'm not weak, am I dad?" Jongwoon said almost crying to Ryeowook.
"Of course not Jongwoon." Ryeowook said taking the young boy on his lap. "You are so much strong!"
"I will play with Donghae and Eunhyuk uncles!" Minjung said running to the lake where everyone could see Donghae showing to his and Eunhyuk's little son, Chinmae, some fishes, Eunhyuk was worried without taking off his gaze from Donghae and his little treasure who was just 2 years old.
Ryeowook's eyes then went to some trees more distanced from them and over there he could to see someone, it was a man for sure, and his face was so much look like the one in his lap that Ryeowook felt his heart get warm. And when he just blinked the man wasn't there anymore, but he knew, Yesung was there. Yesung was always there and Ryeowook would believe in that until the end of the times, because he knew that Yesung would never break his promise.
He would never leave Ryeowook and Jongwoon. Even if the fate, or something bigger, wanted him away.
END
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