12:35am

monday 8th dec:

its the weirdest thing that could've happened.
he apologise to me.
more than once.
i confronted him about the whole "not telling me" issue.
and he apologised.
i was amazed.
men usually brush this kinda thing off.
but not matt.
i think thats what makes him different to other people.
he actually cares.
present tense not past.
even though ( Read more... )

i cannot believe this ( Read more... )

so how do i compete with this?

- Matthew is hanging out with the most amazing girl in the whole world.

it's impossible!

.. i'm jealous.
oh dear god i'm jealous.
why!?!?!?!?!!?!
gah i don't want to be.
i like being his friend. i really do.

ANYWAYS.
moving on from that rant.

went to natalia's house.
nothing makes you happy like wine and taking lover shots of ( Read more... )

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1:00AM :

i don't like being sober and looking after others.
yes i have to wake up at 8 am tomorrow morning to drive to newcastle.

EFUNQ:

SO.
johnny got really drunk and threw up outsid.
ralph got drunk and threw up inside.
bubu, gosko and paulina all tripped over in ralph vomit.
class act these polish kids.
saw nowak.
he's on the outside now, but i don't see ( Read more... )

i will never get sick of being home alone without parents. even though it may have lots its shine .. its still as exciting as ever ( Read more... )

philosophy: fill your life with pets..and then you won't need men.

so went to the movies with matt.
quantum of solace isn't too bad.

why is my computer so slow?
pfft. stuff this new connection.

why is everyone else right about him?
well that's cos they don't have that problem.
ok he likes someone else. i dont care about that.
is it too much to ask for ( Read more... )

so ( Read more... )

i love going to livo movies with matt and seeing all my antioch friends who decided to go. [can you say awkward!?]

i love looking for prime locations.

i love that people in yagoona or wherever have the same ideas as us.

but don't turn out their lights. <--- lol i can see you ( Read more... )

wtf.
why is it always me?
can any else get all the bad luck please?
i just want it once.
once.
please.
i go there and i sit.
talk.
sit.
watch.
but it's not enough.
its never enough.
i want to be enough.
or more than enough.

can you just look at me and see me? not see someone else.
i want you to see me.
i want to be enough for you.

Well all I really wanna do is ( Read more... )