So I didn't get the job I thought I had in the bag... I basically screwed myself over. Got rushed and just turned in kinda crappy work. What was I thinking???? oh well. I know I can and will do better. Hell it was only my second interview.

I have thought too much as usual... and I am so ready to get my life rolling... I am on the verge of something ( Read more... )

Its funny how punctuation can change everything ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what is going on....

I can't sleep at night. I feel sick to my stomach constantly.. I just want to get back to school and have everything figured out for me.

why does the fact she wont talk to me bother me so much.... its really hard for me not to say anything... im trying.

I am at the point where i am balancing the depression and the anger. I just hate this. This is not what I wanted. Deep down I believe this isn't what she wanted either.

I guess writing it here gives me some hope. I get it off my chest ( Read more... )

My dreams have been going crazy lately and I am not really sure what to do about it... I mean they are only dreams but I do take my dreams rather seriously ( Read more... )

I am attempting to seek therapy. I talked to a woman who is about 30 in the are who is a therapist. It would basically cost 50 bucks a meeting with 4-6 meetings... I dont know.

I miss my old family...

I miss a lot of things.

to lose a best friend

just got back from the beach... the last time i will go to that condo probably....

i learned a lot about the people i went with and my relationship.

I was an ass hole. I will delete her number out of my phone soon but i know it by heart anyway....
what a night tonigh surrounded by all kinds of drama... oh well love ya.

I am back in Auburn. Its nice to be back in a place that I have freedom. I am just laying around looking pretty ya know...not really. Something is going on in my head. I am missing something. I have started talking with people who I havent been close with in a long time and it feels good. My birthday is less than a month away and I turn 21. I will ( Read more... )

Basically.. I leave Shu-Te tomorrow. Aran is leaving as we speak. Her and I have gotten pretty close. Her and I have some serious similarities. This has been a theme lately but I know she has a slight form of depression. I think because when I get depressed I don't really want any help unless maybe to vent some anger (which is usually fueled at ( Read more... )