i feel so bad and the worst part is i did it to myself. i wish i could turn back time so i wouldn't have. i hurt so bad in side i cant take it i hate myself. i dont know who i am any more and that scares me.

yesterday was so fucking weird i don't even understand what really happened it seemed so long ago. i had driving school and Evan did to so it wasn't that bad. and i was supposed to go hang out with Martha and Julia but my moms a cunt so we desisted to hang out on Monday or something. but then after i got off the phone i sat in my room and just ( Read more... )

I think its really weird all the sudden all these people are talking about me and noticing me I don't think I like it. I liked being ignored and unimportant because then I could do whatever and no one would say any different I was just that girl stuck in a dream world of her own ( Read more... )

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today has just been one of those bad days. i was supposed to go get my drivers permit today but my mom couldn't find my birth certificate so we had to drive to Van Nuys to get a new certified copy of it. then we tried to go to the dmv but the line was out the fucking door so we drove to the one in canoga park but guess what the line was out the ( Read more... )

I am bored, I am cold, I feel like crap, I don't want to go back to school next week its been so nice without homework to do. I need to get out of my house I cant take it its driving me crazy hopefully tonight I well do something. I need to do something. something has to change or happen life's being so dull! 8 months is a long time ( Read more... )

break is pretty boring. and my stomach hurts so bad right now, i feel like crying. my stomach fucking hates me its never happy. la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, ( Read more... )

I hate the holidays. Every year around this time my mom turns into the Christmas bitch of the West. I cant stand Christmas decorations. the only thing good about Christmas are the presents and I could live without them, its not like I asked for anything any way. Well, I hope that everyone else has some holiday sprit because mine died along time ago

i dont feel that great and i dont know why. i am not sick but i just feel really weak. its so cold at school it sucks i think going to lunch is a punishment because i'll i do is stand and shiver. i cant weight till this week is over. then its three weeks of nothingness and that sounds fucking amazing.
- love melinda

This weekend was good. I am not sure why it was so good but I was. Friday went over to Julia's house. Dylan picked us up we drove around found Evan, meet up with Mike and Romeo went to amc to see a movie but nothing was playing so went to borders left went to starbucks were I fell asleep in Dylan's car, went back to Julia's and tried to watch ( Read more... )