Yelling Into a Hole
This was a shitty semester to begin with. Four classes, four unique preps. Two of the four classes were already filled with self-absorbed, immature, under-skilled pains in the ass.
But, fuck. Moving to remote learning has made it clear that neither students nor the administration have any respect for faculty. I am not talking "bow down before me" respect. I am talking acknowledging that I am a single fucking person who is having the problems of 80 people, three departments, and two institutions dumped on me all day every damned day.
I am talking about the farce that I have autonomy over assessing students, but I'll get four emails from increasingly higher up people saying "This person warrants flexibility." Really? Because they failed every single assignment from the beginning of the semester. They walked into my midterm 45 minutes late, then wrote THIS IS RIDICULOUS on the exam.
And this person warrants flexibility? Oh, are you aware when they claim they didn't have the readings that I stayed up until 4 AM recording a Zoom meeting where I manually turned the pages of the book on my shared screen and sent them movies of it, broken down into the assignments so they wouldn't feel overwhelmed? Are you aware that they never even once bothered to reach out to the librarians, even though I urged them to week after week?
Are you aware that when this person say "Oh, I totally forgot to take that quiz! Can you open it again?" and I do, that sets off a cascade of "I'm SO CONFUSED. WHAT QUIZ AM I SUPPOSED TO TAKE?" emails that I have to answer?
Are you aware that for every person who cannot be bothered to even TRY to follow my requested instructions for posting presentations that not only I have to assess, but their peers are depending on, I have to hunt down where they might have submitted it, figure out how to convert it, upload it, post it to the Canvas site, and answer the other twenty questions that come in from students about where to find it?
You probably all are aware, and you don't give a shit, because you have nothing but contempt for me.
I don't want to do this any more.