RAGE RAGE RAGE
Apologies for not being on ljay enough, first semester of college is almost over.
I just need to write this somewhere.
First semester of college is going on pretty okay. I've met some amazing people, me and my roommate are sort of getting along.....sort of and my mentor in life is pretty awesome.
That being said, I want to switch my major.
Now, I'm Pharmacy major and all I can say is that I dislike it. I don't like the people in it, I don't like the course work and I just don't like how I'm pursuing something that I'm even sure of doing. Maybe because it's Finals week and tensions are running high but I'm just sick of working hard. I simply have no drive for Pharmacy and I really want to switch my major to something, well, I enjoy. I just have this gut feeling that Pharmacy isn't right for me. Granted, I've only been in the major for a semester and that I should wait a bit longer to see if it truly fits me. I've tried talking to my parents about it and all they've said is that if I wanted to switch out of Pharmacy, I'd have to transfer to a state university.
I have this gut feeling that I'm living through my parents and I'm always thinking that I'll never be good enough for them.
Ugh.
But dang, college has sure turned my lifestyle upside down. I've become more crazier and more emotional. I also worry a lot more now. I worry about money, my grades, my friendships and just about everything. I just need everything to stop and I need time to think.
Blah, back to work.
I just need to write this somewhere.
First semester of college is going on pretty okay. I've met some amazing people, me and my roommate are sort of getting along.....sort of and my mentor in life is pretty awesome.
That being said, I want to switch my major.
Now, I'm Pharmacy major and all I can say is that I dislike it. I don't like the people in it, I don't like the course work and I just don't like how I'm pursuing something that I'm even sure of doing. Maybe because it's Finals week and tensions are running high but I'm just sick of working hard. I simply have no drive for Pharmacy and I really want to switch my major to something, well, I enjoy. I just have this gut feeling that Pharmacy isn't right for me. Granted, I've only been in the major for a semester and that I should wait a bit longer to see if it truly fits me. I've tried talking to my parents about it and all they've said is that if I wanted to switch out of Pharmacy, I'd have to transfer to a state university.
I have this gut feeling that I'm living through my parents and I'm always thinking that I'll never be good enough for them.
Ugh.
But dang, college has sure turned my lifestyle upside down. I've become more crazier and more emotional. I also worry a lot more now. I worry about money, my grades, my friendships and just about everything. I just need everything to stop and I need time to think.
Blah, back to work.