35. Not Myself

[pompous_today]

Words cannot express how glad I am that I am myself again. The memories I have of the man I turned into are [pause] mixed, at best, and it felt strange to look in the mirror and see his face while still not truly knowing who he is. It is difficult enough to know so little about oneself without being trapped in the body of someone one knows even

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[kamishininoyari]

Glad to hear you're in a good mood. Nothing quite like being yourself, eh? :)

[pompous_today]

It was quite a unique experience, yes.

[lingeringlegacy]

Nice to meet you, Simon. I'm Stellaris, arrived three weeks ago and now working in Housekeeping. I've been to Wellspring twice but I don't think we've acquainted.

I think I can empathize with that sentiment. But by being stuck in another's body, while incredibly irritating at first, it feels I was able to learn a little more about my own strengths and shortcomings.

[pompous_today]

Hello, Stellaris, and nice to meet you as well. And no, I do not recall having met in person yet; I hope that if we do, it is outside the setting of the clinic, at least.

That is quite an interesting perspective on the matter. I was mostly focused on the fact that I disliked my own appearance, as did my sister.

[lingeringlegacy]

Who knows; we might just come across each other when I return the glasses I borrowed from the clinic.

I myself was engrossed at what this body couldn't do and knowledge I couldn't access, and how it affected my routines. But after few days in, I got ashamed that so many other people were able to overcome the situation so graciously, still out and about helping others, unlike myself: being curt to acquaintances and spent the week reclusely. Grace and adaptability clearly are traits I need to hone more.

[pompous_today]

That's quite possible.

It is quite easy to notice the shortcomings of someone else's body when they are so different from your own. I cannot blame you for not being able to adapt to it very easily.

[ice_echani]

I am quite glad to be entirely myself as well. Although I must admit, I do find myself quite curious about the man I became.

[pompous_today]

Was he someone you know, or could you not entirely tell?

struck out for privacy

[ice_echani]

I think his face was too familiar to not at least have been acquainted with him. The way I moved in his body seemed that way as well. I believe that he is a Jedi.

[pompous_today]

That's very interesting. It makes me wonder if it was the same for everyone else... if we all changed into people we knew from our pasts.

I see. So you had similar abilities?

[forgottenbaika]

I know what your talking about, it was [ A pause. ] the same with me.

I'm Asuka, nice meeting you Simon.

[pompous_today]

I believe we have spoken... or written, in this case... already, actually. Your handwriting is familiar.

[forgottenbaika]

Really? I'm sorry, I don't think I remember you.

[ She would have liked to curse her lack of sleep, but alas, she won't write anything. ]

[pompous_today]

It's alright, it was only very briefly.

[weaver_girl]

I think I can empathise with that--I mean, having mixed feelings about the person in whose body you were. I'm glad you're all right now.

[pompous_today]

I am, too.

My sister and I both apparently knew this man, and I know I can't make judgments without knowing who he truly is, but it was still a bit unsettling.

[weaver_girl]

I know. I sort of wanted to turn all our mirrors to face the wall so I'd stop startling myself.