it feels so good

[pontigrl]

to be detached.
this is how i need to be. everyday.
there is only so much i can do. i'm doing my best.
my best is good enough.
everything's not going to be alright.
and that's ok.
the world fucking exploded tonight, everyone is dead,
and i feel alright.

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[danamk]

i dunno girl, i've been detached for far too long and it kinda sucks

[pontigrl]

i can see that. but i guess i don't feel so much detached from the world... i meant it more in the sense that i'm getting better at staying detached from my residents' problems. when i wrote this, this was just after a giant crisis with three emotional/mental breakdowns and i was very grateful that i was able to not get caught up/bogged down emotionally by this and was able to maintain a rational stable mental state. this house has taken down 3 counselors in 6 months. i'm not letting that happen to me.