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poo

To all 82 of you

Oct 22, 2008 10:44

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue ( Read more... )

anon, 2008 pt. 2, meme

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anonymous October 22 2008, 17:52:20 UTC

i want to do this on my own journal but i am too nervous

poo October 22 2008, 18:04:59 UTC

Not much bad could happen, right? It's your journal and you control, so go for it and good luck :)

anonymous October 22 2008, 17:52:36 UTC

I seriously think you're just about the greatest person in the entire world, and I think I've developed a bit of a crush on you, which makes me question my sexuality and worries me, since I have a boyfriend. On the one hand, I realize nothing would ever happen between you and me, but on the other hand, I can't help thinking about it.

This isn't some crazy, creepy, sexual comment (although I'm a little worried that's what it sounds like). I just wanted you to know that someone on your friends list thinks you are beautiful and fantastic.

poo October 22 2008, 18:07:21 UTC

I didn't think it was creepy or crazy. Thank you for thinking I am beautiful and fantastic.
And if you are who I think you are, then I wouldn't worry too much because you are quite dedicated to who you are with.

anonymous October 22 2008, 17:59:04 UTC

People always compliment me on how strong I am, and how I bounce back from stuff so quickly, and how much they admire that. My friends call me constantly with their problems, and just unload all their stress on me. My family constantly asks me for advice and help. I try to be good and solid and helpful to everyone ( ... )

poo October 22 2008, 18:22:38 UTC

Oh hun. People have probably gotten so used to you being their guide and support that they forget that you are human and are probably struggling, too. I would go anonymous to make this comment, but I might as well be honest in my own journal: I think about suicide every day, too. I just don't feel right being alive most days, like there's something out of place and that out of place is me. So many people IRL think I am strong and amazing, and do the same thing. Online is the only place I can unleash myself. My point is: sometimes you need to let down your hair and stop keeping up the façade that you're so put together. Try and find someone that you trust and love, and who loves you equally, that you can talk to without fear of judgment. Don't hide your identity. Saying, "you know, I am depressed a lot of the time and need someone to care about me" may seem hard, and yeah it isn't exactly "I'm suicidal all day", but it's a start and the courage you need to say that is a stepping stone to more confidential revelations (if that makes ( ... )

anonymous October 22 2008, 18:02:43 UTC

I have never been this fat before in my life. It's so depressing!!!!!! I don't even recognize myself in the mirror anymore. And I haven't gone 1 day without having a drink in almost 8 years. Even if just a beer or a glass of wine, I NEED AT LEAST ONE!!!!!!!
I miss my grandparents so damn much. 100 years could go by and I still won't get over the fact that they are dead. I dream about them every night.

poo October 22 2008, 18:27:51 UTC

I'm at my heaviest weight right now and, yeah, I can sympathize with you. When I look in the mirror I don't see Morgan or any hint of pretty, I see my double chin and fat rolls glaring back at me. I would say "just find your inner beauty" or something corny like that, but I know it's not that easy. I hope you can find a way to remedy the situation, and I'm not (just) talking about weight loss, I'm talking about improving self-image and self-confidence.

Do you feel like you're an alcoholic? One drink a night won't kill you babe, but if you feel like it's a problem then that's not a good sign.

And chances are, your grandparents miss you, too.

anonymous October 22 2008, 18:30:11 UTC

I feel so out of place most of the time. I hate my job. It has nothing to do with my major, and pays me way less than someone who has a degree should be making. I'm too depressed and unmotivated to really do anything about it at the moment. Plus, the economy sucks so bad and it's really hard to find something new. I just want to work somewhere, where I care about people and can do good things for otehers and they give me the same things in return. I get stuck in my thoughts too easily and tell myself that things aren't ever going to go back to the way they used to be, and it's not going to get any better. It's really hard for me to let go of a lot of things in my past, and I just feel stuck.

poo October 22 2008, 18:40:04 UTC

:/ I just think it's so shitty that the most genuine and caring people, the most deserving, typically end up getting the short end of the stick.

And as much as people say that you need let go of your past, it's a part of you. It helped formed who you are. Learning to accept it? Yes. But entirely forgetting is like trying to entirely forget who are you. I hope you can heal and move on from whatever you need help with <3