DEAR SPECIFIC PERSONS IN MY EXTENDED FAMILY,

[poodilywoots]

NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW I'M FEELING. YOU'VE NEVER UNDERSTOOD AND YOU ARE IDIOTIC TO ASSUME THAT ALL OF A SUDDEN I WILL GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS ABOUT HOW I TAKE CARE OF AND DEAL WITH MY MOTHER. IF YOU START TREATING HER AS THOUGH SHE WILL BREAK AT ANY MOMENT SHE IS GOING TO FALL INTO A "NOTHING IS EVER GOING TO GET BETTER"

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[a_phoenixdragon]

FUCK.

FUCK THEM!!! I JUST - ARRGHHHHHH!! THEY CAN GO FUCK OFF!! WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM?! FUCK THEM VERY FUCKING MUCH! THEY KNOW HOW IT IS - YOUR MOM KNOWS HOW IT IS AND YOU DO TOO, SO THEY HAVEN'T GOT A LEG TO FUCKING STAND ON!

I'M HERE IF YOU NEED ME, BB!! AND I KNOW - BELIEVE ME, ALL OF US HERE KNOW, LOVIE!

*SQUISHES YOU FIERCELY*

[poodilywoots]

Thanks so much sweetheart it means a lot to me to hear that I'm not total shit for feeling this way.
I feel slightly better after having typed that. I don't feel like I'm going to bash my brains out or something.
*hugs and clings tightly*
I wish I had the ability to stand up for myself. Whenever I try it just doesn't come out right. They would NEVER say these things to my brother - he has no problem telling them what he thinks of their bullshit - but something stops me. *sigh* I need a backbone but I feel like they ripped it out a long time ago.

[a_phoenixdragon]

Not at all, honey - I think every family has some stuck-up, entitled, elitist assholes in there. And your aunts and uncles sound like the worst of the worst.

*Cuddles you*

Sometimes screaming it in print makes you feel better - especially when you are too well-behaved and proper to do it to their faces. Your momma raised you better, I'm sure. Though someone going nuclear on them would not go amiss.

I'm not good with confrontation myself sweetie - tis nothing to be ashamed of. Tis limiting, but at least you come off looking more like a lady and they come off looking like the assholes they are. Still wish your brother was around to settle their hashes, though...

*Loves you hard*

[poodilywoots]

They are good people they just don't know how to deal with mom. And any time I tell them how - because I've been doing it for YEARS - they tell me I'm wrong. :/ I don't know how they think they know better.

Yeah I'm a bit of a pushover. I don't like confrontation and I don't like anyone to be mad at me, like ever.
And my mom raised me very well. I just wish she would have taught me how to treat myself well too, not just how to please everyone else.

My brother would probably make it worse cause he's very loud and says a lot of things LOL. And then I feel like I have to break up the fight al;djflkaj;sldfkja;lja I NEED TO STOP TRYING TO SAVE EVERYONE grrrrr.

I HEART YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME, THANK YOU.

[poodilywoots]

I do think they're projecting their guilt. They were never there to help her and are angry that the end is coming and they weren't there. That certainly isn't MY fault. Jesus Christ they need to shut the hell up.
*huggles* Thanks for the reassurance although I'm sorry that you know how I'm feel. This is fucking bullshit.

[poodilywoots]

*hugs and cuddles*

YAY, IMMA GO CHECK IT OUUUUUTTTT <3333
And I did another Mark Wahlberg post BECAUSE FANGIRLING IS GOOD FOR THE SOUL.

[superfan1]

Hugs!

I'm sorry you went through that. :(

[poodilywoots]

Thanks for the hugs, you're very sweet.

Its better now. I get to go to a concert tomorrow so I'll be able to get away for a bit. :D

[superfan1]

Have lots of fun hon! <3