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[pookahchu]

So yeah, been working at the gym for like a month now. Also working temporary assignments whenever they are available, also still looking for programming jobs, and taking care of medical stuff, car stuff, etc. Oh, yeah, and I still have web orders to fill and deliver. I have roughly three appointments per day these days and I spend a lot of time

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[igferatu]

Does anyone really make things happen though? I think it's sort of a fiction of the ego. How can you tell if what you think you want is really what you could live with? The idea of choosing a path and sticking to it sounds like a good experiment, although I'd say that the only path that's going to be stickable is one that has already been dictated to you by something beyond your conscious mind. The Secret is that Life is a Mindfuck. It's not a vending machine that spits out fulfilled dreams for anyone who bothers stating them clearly or repeatedly. (although sometimes it seems that way for a while, usually ending up with a rather humiliating cycle of disillusionment

[igferatu]

Thank you for your comment! It gave me a lot to think about

[igferatu]

Ah, well there's nothing wrong with increasing focus and concentration in that situation. I'd just say don't be too hard on yourself, just your awareness of the issue is a sign that you'll keep working on it.

I find that I have to sort of go through the motions of doing what I think a person is supposed to do and then eventually, after I've pretty much given up, something else pops up.