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[pookie_blue]

I had a bad dream. My mom redecorated my kitchen, filling it with totally inappropriate things, pegboard walls, paper furniture, clear plastic boxes of dicks and other organs on a spiderwebby garage shelf, photo albums and a jar of piss in the fridge, raw meat storage in the back of the cupboards, and when I confronted her about it she spoke

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[ragingpie]

*Sits you on the couch and hugs you while you drink soothing hot cocoa*

Knowing just a mere fraction of what your mom has put you through, I'll offer this for if the dream reoccurs: believe that the someone else who sees you is me. Then believe that I leap to your defense and help you choke her, because I would. And remind yourself that it's just a dream. You won in real life. She's no part of your life and you are safe, and I hope happy.

[pookie_blue]

Indeed, safe and happy. I've just been dreaming a whole lot lately, and that one troubled me. Because I woke up not violent and angry, but relaxed.

[rangersexypants]

Maybe it was good! Maybe that someone seeing you was there for YOU. Maybe you woke up feeling relaxed because it was all layed out for anyone to witness. Wildly inappropriate things that she had done. Breaking in, vandalizing your home. Hideous, hostile, malicious treatment. Terrible things that she had put in your home, in transparent containers and on shelves for everyone to see. Indefensible behavior that was witnessed by someone else. Maybe it was your brain's way of showing you that what she has done is very obviously wrong. And you're not the only one that knows it! You see it, she defends it, but it is all layed out in the open and it's not being hidden and it can't be defended.

[pookie_blue]

Thanks sexy pants! You two are great at helping me feel empowered! More recent dreams have been of belly dancing and being a banana. Its weird feeling so fragile (banana) and so able to wiggle. I also dreamt I was at a campfire with no marshmallows, it was very awkward.
I love it when I get epic dream times! My brain is doing some deep cleaning lately.

[pookie_blue]

Pregnancy dreaming is awesome. :)