Why are people so afraid to be completely honest with others and themselves? Is it wrong to admit to feeling vulnerable, weak, selfconsious or insecure? Is it wrong to admit that you need someone other than yourself? We put on this super human mask suck up natural emotions and pretend to be put together like everything's so great. Granted there are ( Read more... )

I had my Dr. appointment today I have been worrying about it for a while now because I was fearing being checked "down there" but all went well. I was very surprised at how much it didn't hurt almost sad, but I guess having a baby really stretches things out. I also had to give a pee sample to check for a bladder infection which I think I have one ( Read more... )

I have never been so tired in my entire life! I feel like Edward Norton in Fight Club dealing with insomnia never really asleep or awake. Everything is blending in together someone could be talking to me and I hear mumbles and physically can't understand or speak. I can't sleep unless I know someone is up with Veda because I'm scared that I'm to a ( Read more... )

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This is me before Veda
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This is me 2-6-05 three days before she was bornhttp://img.photobucket.com/albums/

Sleep is something that you learn to live without. My precious little girl has her nights and days mixed up. The night before last she was awake from 2:45am until 5am. and last night she was up every two hours on the dot. She finished her last feeding at 9am this morning and now she's still sleeping and she more than likely wont get up to eat again ( Read more... )

Our Veda is home sweet home! At last! She's the best baby in the whole world! She's so good she hardly ever crys only when she's hungry. She's such a joy to have around I can and can't wait for her to grow up ( Read more... )

She was born on feb 9,2005 6lbs 4oz 19-1/2 inches long! It was a long hard labor. my water broke right at midnight that morning. I was putting together a touch lamp and watching the Drew Cary show. After that mash came on and I got up to change the Chanel to the late Show and didn't make it to the TV I jut stood up and I felt like I started peeing ( Read more... )

This is my growing progress over the last 8 months ( Read more... )

I got up this morning at 7am with only 5 hours of sleep I was too stressed out and had too much on my mind to sleep. When Brad got up he called and our benefits finally kicked in! I'm so happy! :-) He told me that we had $70 for food assistance and that was it. I was glad that we at least got something and felt I had no room to complain, although $ ( Read more... )